you are not part of my life ; you are part of me.

20050730

one month ; tears of joyy . we managed to spend it togather . cherrishing what we have . what we build .

i dun regret what happened in the pass / it only means you love me . iloveyou

i want to spend the rest of my life with you by my side /

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20041123

just came frm town
was fun cause this time went wid sarah
sarah wore a orange sports bra
and a jersey wic is see tru!
to make it worse it rain?
and yeah we could see everything

i see lets make a list of wad i bought:
16 fuck bands-$4
sarah's bear-$12
vin's cd(: the abc guyy-$20
quicksilver pencil box-$20
paid half of uncle bda pressie-$10

there was this cute sales guy frm flash and splash
nice tan bald and has black earings
well i was practically staring ad him
and this bitch said to him
tat i was staring
i mean FUCK OFF!
this are ma eyes!
dun bother maiing comments
he seriously had cute looks
i mean if she said i came all the way
there just to take a look ad him?
so fucking wrong
i needa blarady pencil box

ferged it
i very lazy to write nithing liaow

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20041122

i am going to be FAT!!
READ DAT F-A-T!
i just ate tow bowles of fattening food
i needa go gym
i needa go fer ma daily run

who wants to go wid me?
shidshid
i wanted to wear da black t
but found out it can see ma HUGE TUMMY!!
aint going to swear since dat can see it ad ani time):
but!
#$&^^&^$##$%%
there its all written!

orite todae was BORING!
msged baby but look like he didnt want to
BLEHS!

went hhorny wid PHEBE
i was a one night stander((:
and i was describing ma life to her
shoo nice
add some spices to ma dae((:

PHEBE!
i have not seen it before!!
its not ugly nor is it beautiful!
i cant decide cause i haven seen it before!!
and i am still a wnderful ONE NIGHT STANDER((:
accept it
i get more money fer dat((:

OIS!
fer ya
i msged but u half hearted reply
i know it
cause it wasnt u todae
sad to sae):
msg me orite tml
i needa get sumthing off ma chest((:

specialize in heartbreaks` you are here` but i dont feel the love ineedabreak((:

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20041120

heyys
me bckk((:
am looking ad sum pics dat was taken
during rayerrr
like hell
half da time we were goofing ard
none nice piccs

shid people camme
have to cuut it short fer todae):
but am leaving the compp on((:

yeaps
leaving the lyrics on fer fun((:

Intro (Lah)
Everytime I close my eyes
Shorty I see you
Right there with me
Walk with me
Verse 1 (Joe Flizzow)
Girl I seen you do your thang
Make a playa' wanna holla'
Seen cats trying to run game
Impress you with their dollars
You ain't like that
That's what I love about you
No need no man to give you ends
And try support ya'
You rock manolo things
Your blings match your rims
You only know me as that rapper
Workout at your gym
I seen you work that punching bag
Releasing ya' anger
Baby something's stressing you
That's why you look so gangsta'
That ish attracting me
Cos' boo you ain't fake
Let me step to you
Holla' boo make it a date
Then we can conversate
Get to know what you hate
And what you want
Ain't trying to front
I ain't no second rate
I'm the real deal
Ain't no run of the mill
And I'm digging you crazy
Your style is real ill
So take a walk with me
Open up and talk to me
Ain't no pressure
Just kick it
That's how it's gonna be
No fancy restaurants
We both sick of that
Let's take a stroll
If you cold wrap my hoodie
Round your back
Walk to your doorstep
Give me that smile baby
Huh...
Hot damn you the ish...
Chorus (Lah)
Everytime I close my eyes
I fantasize myself with you (Shorty I see you)
Shorty lookin' tight
I bet you'll look so right with me
There's so much to talk about
So yeah let's talk about it
While we walk around
Now baby come, right
Hold me tight
And take a walk with me...
Verse 2 (Noreen)
First off
I heard your relish for chicks
I'm not your average witch
And that's a fact
That I'll establish quick
So kill the devilish tricks
I'm not at all a fabulous pick
Stay in the palace or rich
Or slammin' like the chicks
In your clips
And quit the modesty
Of course
I know your name man
Heard 'bout your fame clan
And all about your game plans
I'm not your typical prey
A different dame brand
Yo star struck
And fall for celebs?
Yo' that's a lame trend
We come from two different worlds
Like Uncle L sang
Go tell fam
That why I play hard
It’s just a gal thang
I know my words sting
So tell the whole gang
Well oh dang
Still pushin' ma's whips?
You lil' poor thang
You like the rims on my ride?
You need a hike?
Psyque, a lil' walk
Will make you feel aight, right?
Burn some calories
Out by every mile
Yo peace
I'm outtie five thou
With a coke and a smile... Holla'
Chorus (Lah)
Everytime I close my eyes
I fantasize myself with you (Shorty I see you)
Shorty lookin' tight
I bet you'll look so right with me
There's so much to talk about
So yeah let's talk about it
While we walk around
Now baby come, right
Hold me tight
And take a walk with me...
Verse 3 (Malique)
Ay shorty listen
I bet you hear this ish
All the time
But here's a lil' something
Worth playin' on auto rewind
I hope you don't mind
To kill a lil' time
To hear clearly
Since you a harder target
Let me take my shots fairly
Rarely, I gets to meet a gurlie
Hard to be tamed
Yea I done broke alotta hearts
And I ain't mentionin' names
A playa'
Too many games played
Has gotten me a tired man
And your rejection means
Delayin' my retirement
So shorty grab my hand
And walk with me
I'll crack a joke
And make you chuckle
Promenade up in the park with me
It's just a lil' me and you
Chill session
To change your foul perceptions
And your misconceptions
I'll sit you down
And make you look in my eye
So when I talk on future plannings,
You can tell it whether I'm lyin' or nah
Alotta guys are steady lyin'
Just to get through your thighs
But I just wanna make you smile
Cause I'm allergic to cries
You feel me?
I swear to God I'll treat you proper
I'll love you proper
Apologies for lesser wealth to offer
I heard your man
He drive a Benz
You like to ride that?
Well off that
I ain't got that
Now shorty
Lets just take a walk right back...
What...
Verse 4 (Quotazn)
Ok, yeah
My man he got a nice car
But that's not my deal
Plus we didn't get very far
He left me in a hurry
Like he had the damn right
To leave me feeling this way
Wasted every night
But I don't need your shoulder
Or your tissue
I'm the kind of girl
Who can handle her own issues
Listen
I don't place affections thoughtlessly
So I’m kinda weary
When you say walk with me
So what the dilly?
Now really what's the hype?
Stop explainin' yourself playboy
I know your type
You wanna step into my life
And do me right
You play with girls all day
Call me every night
You wanna walk with me
You wanna talk with me
But when I need a boy
Boy where you gon' be?
Would you be my side?
Maybe in your ride?
Maybe even on the stage
Waving side to side?
Your words fall on deaf ears
I don't need your sweetness
I'm oblivious
'Cause I know women
Are your weakness
Maybe we should walk
But in opposite directions
I hope my irritance
Shows in my voice inflection
Chorus (Lah)
Everytime I close my eyes
I fantasize myself with you (Shorty I see you)
Shorty lookin' tight
I bet you'll look so right with me
There's so much to talk about
So yeah let's talk about it
While we walk around
Now baby come, right
Hold me tight
And take a walk with me...

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20041116

aam toking to baby now
had the comp ad last!
dad was pratically having it da whole morning
and now ma turn!
muahaha!!

yesdae was funny!
i told ma kuzzie about him
nt ashik but HIM
he was pratically staring ad me~
aand asked fer forgiveness again!!
wad da hell
got other teenagers ard
whyy must be me!!
so irritating orhhs
had a great time laughing ad him though!
aiyarhs
if U like me
just say
dun needa stare
till ur eyes wanna drop canss?
TSK

ani wai
had to wash plate and all tat
mma relative yazid look cute!
but wen smile look like gay lorh
he is a nice guyy thoughh
and granny was pratically tell his family
how different we were frm him
he knows how to do stuff
and i was like
"he is ready to become a hubby wad"
but wasnt loud enough to lead him hear dat !

we were expecting more than
wad came yesdae
but it was okae
i tink collected ard 50?
so total ard 250 there larhss
can can

yesdae nite was msg till 2 am in da morning
sure say goodbye to hp soon
spend ard 200 msges yesdae oni
ok larhs
getting bck to the conv
see ya
tc care
peace!

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20041115

heyys
backks
waiting fer people coming over
listening to a song by trivilation
soo nice
rap plus agu rayerr

yesdae collected ard 200 i tink
haiz
am so sickk
cousin is hyper!
i am sick
evelibodi is tiredd
wad more can there be??
whole dae sms
like nobodi buissness
akhaz
can say goodbye oleadi!
NAH DADDDY!
CAN HAVE MY HP OLEADI!!
sulks

yesdae tried saying in malay
wen askng fer forgiveneess
but i dun even noe wad i am sayying
so shitty and maluatiingg
den ma grandad(aunty dad)
said
aiyarhs say in english canss
so i said
"selamat hari rayer"
"maaf zahir dan batin"
"i seek your forgiveness for ani wrong doings"
"from head to toe"
chim arhss?

aiyorhss am sooo boreddd
kaezz
am going back to the poem half way writiing((:
torture isnt enoough
nice ritee?

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just reach home
am so tireed
shid i had alot to blogg
but have to waid fer tml:

aniwais
todae wasnt dat abd larhss
den tml got alot of people comingg
SULKS
wad da hell arhs
veri tired

am going to bedd((:
tml have ta call ad 11?
wadss
shidd
have oni ard 9 hours to slp!
NOT ENOUGH!!
sulks :/

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20041114

heyys
justdoneup
mahairandput
downthephone
widbaby

yesdae
waid
this morning
came home at 5 am
went to geylang
o enjoy the last day of it((:
was packed sia
and then akhaz
cuci materr lorhss
got one cute dude
but selling baju*bleahs
disgusting lorhss
akhazz

toldmom aboubaby
wad da hell i was tinking ritee?
cause i dun want a secret
r/s or friendship wid boiss
yeapss
she can accept him
souund innocent i tinkk
bleahs!

akhaz
now we can tok freely on the phone
bleahss
lamess larhs
ma aunt just wentt
she going her in-laws housee

amm soo booored
shid larhs
people call then put down da phone
aiyarhs must be asking fer forgiveness den go outt
aiyarhs nvrmindd

ashik a.k.a blehs! unte

akhaz

remember those days wen

we called widout MY mom knowing

akhaz

now canss liaows

aniwai have a meaningful time oritee

and yeash will call once i get home((:

buhbyez

love ya

take care

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