hAtinG mAseLF

2005-07-30T16:55:00.000+08:00

one month ; tears of joyy . we managed to spend it togather . cherrishing what we have . what we build .

i dun regret what happened in the pass / it only means you love me . iloveyou

i want to spend the rest of my life with you by my side /

2004-11-23T19:48:00.000+08:00

just came frm town
was fun cause this time went wid sarah
sarah wore a orange sports bra
and a jersey wic is see tru!
to make it worse it rain?
and yeah we could see everything

i see lets make a list of wad i bought:
16 fuck bands-$4
sarah's bear-$12
vin's cd(: the abc guyy-$20
quicksilver pencil box-$20
paid half of uncle bda pressie-$10

there was this cute sales guy frm flash and splash
nice tan bald and has black earings
well i was practically staring ad him
and this bitch said to him
tat i was staring
i mean FUCK OFF!
this are ma eyes!
dun bother maiing comments
he seriously had cute looks
i mean if she said i came all the way
there just to take a look ad him?
so fucking wrong
i needa blarady pencil box

ferged it
i very lazy to write nithing liaow

2004-11-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

i am going to be FAT!!
READ DAT F-A-T!
i just ate tow bowles of fattening food
i needa go gym
i needa go fer ma daily run

who wants to go wid me?
shidshid
i wanted to wear da black t
but found out it can see ma HUGE TUMMY!!
aint going to swear since dat can see it ad ani time):
but!
#$&^^&^$##$%%
there its all written!

orite todae was BORING!
msged baby but look like he didnt want to
BLEHS!

went hhorny wid PHEBE
i was a one night stander((:
and i was describing ma life to her
shoo nice
add some spices to ma dae((:

PHEBE!
i have not seen it before!!
its not ugly nor is it beautiful!
i cant decide cause i haven seen it before!!
and i am still a wnderful ONE NIGHT STANDER((:
accept it
i get more money fer dat((:

OIS!
fer ya
i msged but u half hearted reply
i know it
cause it wasnt u todae
sad to sae):
msg me orite tml
i needa get sumthing off ma chest((:

specialize in heartbreaks` you are here` but i dont feel the love ineedabreak((:

2004-11-20T20:10:00.000+08:00

heyys
me bckk((:
am looking ad sum pics dat was taken
during rayerrr
like hell
half da time we were goofing ard
none nice piccs

shid people camme
have to cuut it short fer todae):
but am leaving the compp on((:

yeaps
leaving the lyrics on fer fun((:

Intro (Lah)
Everytime I close my eyes
Shorty I see you
Right there with me
Walk with me
Verse 1 (Joe Flizzow)
Girl I seen you do your thang
Make a playa' wanna holla'
Seen cats trying to run game
Impress you with their dollars
You ain't like that
That's what I love about you
No need no man to give you ends
And try support ya'
You rock manolo things
Your blings match your rims
You only know me as that rapper
Workout at your gym
I seen you work that punching bag
Releasing ya' anger
Baby something's stressing you
That's why you look so gangsta'
That ish attracting me
Cos' boo you ain't fake
Let me step to you
Holla' boo make it a date
Then we can conversate
Get to know what you hate
And what you want
Ain't trying to front
I ain't no second rate
I'm the real deal
Ain't no run of the mill
And I'm digging you crazy
Your style is real ill
So take a walk with me
Open up and talk to me
Ain't no pressure
Just kick it
That's how it's gonna be
No fancy restaurants
We both sick of that
Let's take a stroll
If you cold wrap my hoodie
Round your back
Walk to your doorstep
Give me that smile baby
Huh...
Hot damn you the ish...
Chorus (Lah)
Everytime I close my eyes
I fantasize myself with you (Shorty I see you)
Shorty lookin' tight
I bet you'll look so right with me
There's so much to talk about
So yeah let's talk about it
While we walk around
Now baby come, right
Hold me tight
And take a walk with me...
Verse 2 (Noreen)
First off
I heard your relish for chicks
I'm not your average witch
And that's a fact
That I'll establish quick
So kill the devilish tricks
I'm not at all a fabulous pick
Stay in the palace or rich
Or slammin' like the chicks
In your clips
And quit the modesty
Of course
I know your name man
Heard 'bout your fame clan
And all about your game plans
I'm not your typical prey
A different dame brand
Yo star struck
And fall for celebs?
Yo' that's a lame trend
We come from two different worlds
Like Uncle L sang
Go tell fam
That why I play hard
It’s just a gal thang
I know my words sting
So tell the whole gang
Well oh dang
Still pushin' ma's whips?
You lil' poor thang
You like the rims on my ride?
You need a hike?
Psyque, a lil' walk
Will make you feel aight, right?
Burn some calories
Out by every mile
Yo peace
I'm outtie five thou
With a coke and a smile... Holla'
Chorus (Lah)
Everytime I close my eyes
I fantasize myself with you (Shorty I see you)
Shorty lookin' tight
I bet you'll look so right with me
There's so much to talk about
So yeah let's talk about it
While we walk around
Now baby come, right
Hold me tight
And take a walk with me...
Verse 3 (Malique)
Ay shorty listen
I bet you hear this ish
All the time
But here's a lil' something
Worth playin' on auto rewind
I hope you don't mind
To kill a lil' time
To hear clearly
Since you a harder target
Let me take my shots fairly
Rarely, I gets to meet a gurlie
Hard to be tamed
Yea I done broke alotta hearts
And I ain't mentionin' names
A playa'
Too many games played
Has gotten me a tired man
And your rejection means
Delayin' my retirement
So shorty grab my hand
And walk with me
I'll crack a joke
And make you chuckle
Promenade up in the park with me
It's just a lil' me and you
Chill session
To change your foul perceptions
And your misconceptions
I'll sit you down
And make you look in my eye
So when I talk on future plannings,
You can tell it whether I'm lyin' or nah
Alotta guys are steady lyin'
Just to get through your thighs
But I just wanna make you smile
Cause I'm allergic to cries
You feel me?
I swear to God I'll treat you proper
I'll love you proper
Apologies for lesser wealth to offer
I heard your man
He drive a Benz
You like to ride that?
Well off that
I ain't got that
Now shorty
Lets just take a walk right back...
What...
Verse 4 (Quotazn)
Ok, yeah
My man he got a nice car
But that's not my deal
Plus we didn't get very far
He left me in a hurry
Like he had the damn right
To leave me feeling this way
Wasted every night
But I don't need your shoulder
Or your tissue
I'm the kind of girl
Who can handle her own issues
Listen
I don't place affections thoughtlessly
So I’m kinda weary
When you say walk with me
So what the dilly?
Now really what's the hype?
Stop explainin' yourself playboy
I know your type
You wanna step into my life
And do me right
You play with girls all day
Call me every night
You wanna walk with me
You wanna talk with me
But when I need a boy
Boy where you gon' be?
Would you be my side?
Maybe in your ride?
Maybe even on the stage
Waving side to side?
Your words fall on deaf ears
I don't need your sweetness
I'm oblivious
'Cause I know women
Are your weakness
Maybe we should walk
But in opposite directions
I hope my irritance
Shows in my voice inflection
Chorus (Lah)
Everytime I close my eyes
I fantasize myself with you (Shorty I see you)
Shorty lookin' tight
I bet you'll look so right with me
There's so much to talk about
So yeah let's talk about it
While we walk around
Now baby come, right
Hold me tight
And take a walk with me...

2004-11-16T15:14:00.000+08:00

aam toking to baby now
had the comp ad last!
dad was pratically having it da whole morning
and now ma turn!
muahaha!!

yesdae was funny!
i told ma kuzzie about him
nt ashik but HIM
he was pratically staring ad me~
aand asked fer forgiveness again!!
wad da hell
got other teenagers ard
whyy must be me!!
so irritating orhhs
had a great time laughing ad him though!
aiyarhs
if U like me
just say
dun needa stare
till ur eyes wanna drop canss?
TSK

ani wai
had to wash plate and all tat
mma relative yazid look cute!
but wen smile look like gay lorh
he is a nice guyy thoughh
and granny was pratically tell his family
how different we were frm him
he knows how to do stuff
and i was like
"he is ready to become a hubby wad"
but wasnt loud enough to lead him hear dat !

we were expecting more than
wad came yesdae
but it was okae
i tink collected ard 50?
so total ard 250 there larhss
can can

yesdae nite was msg till 2 am in da morning
sure say goodbye to hp soon
spend ard 200 msges yesdae oni
ok larhs
getting bck to the conv
see ya
tc care
peace!

2004-11-15T15:00:00.000+08:00

heyys
backks
waiting fer people coming over
listening to a song by trivilation
soo nice
rap plus agu rayerr

yesdae collected ard 200 i tink
haiz
am so sickk
cousin is hyper!
i am sick
evelibodi is tiredd
wad more can there be??
whole dae sms
like nobodi buissness
akhaz
can say goodbye oleadi!
NAH DADDDY!
CAN HAVE MY HP OLEADI!!
sulks

yesdae tried saying in malay
wen askng fer forgiveneess
but i dun even noe wad i am sayying
so shitty and maluatiingg
den ma grandad(aunty dad)
said
aiyarhs say in english canss
so i said
"selamat hari rayer"
"maaf zahir dan batin"
"i seek your forgiveness for ani wrong doings"
"from head to toe"
chim arhss?

aiyorhss am sooo boreddd
kaezz
am going back to the poem half way writiing((:
torture isnt enoough
nice ritee?

2004-11-15T01:54:00.000+08:00

just reach home
am so tireed
shid i had alot to blogg
but have to waid fer tml:

aniwais
todae wasnt dat abd larhss
den tml got alot of people comingg
SULKS
wad da hell arhs
veri tired

am going to bedd((:
tml have ta call ad 11?
wadss
shidd
have oni ard 9 hours to slp!
NOT ENOUGH!!
sulks :/

2004-11-14T10:55:00.000+08:00

heyys
justdoneup
mahairandput
downthephone
widbaby

yesdae
waid
this morning
came home at 5 am
went to geylang
o enjoy the last day of it((:
was packed sia
and then akhaz
cuci materr lorhss
got one cute dude
but selling baju*bleahs
disgusting lorhss
akhazz

toldmom aboubaby
wad da hell i was tinking ritee?
cause i dun want a secret
r/s or friendship wid boiss
yeapss
she can accept him
souund innocent i tinkk
bleahs!

akhaz
now we can tok freely on the phone
bleahss
lamess larhs
ma aunt just wentt
she going her in-laws housee

amm soo booored
shid larhs
people call then put down da phone
aiyarhs must be asking fer forgiveness den go outt
aiyarhs nvrmindd

ashik a.k.a blehs! unte

akhaz

remember those days wen

we called widout MY mom knowing

akhaz

now canss liaows

aniwai have a meaningful time oritee

and yeash will call once i get home((:

buhbyez

love ya

take care

2004-11-13T16:16:00.000+08:00

[draft two]
am so tireed and soo deadd
spring clean da house fer dun know how many hourss
ma baby is soo lucky out theree
dun knoww where oso : /
hows?
am soo boored
i give up on it
not supose to on the compp
but on it ferst thing in morning
and aunt didnt say nithing
so just dun boother lahrss

now am looking ad some skinss
i wanna change
and i oso dun want to changge
poot said it was nicee
so i am justt looking ad it
probably changing it afta rayerr((:
so yeahss
blehss is invading ma bloog
hu is blehhs
i dun knoww
bleahss

waidds
i dun know wad to get fer ma blogg
have been having dark oness ard
like the gerl wid dat creature in a dungeon
den it was the gerl screaming
den now this is the onee
GIMME A SUGGESTION!
argh
blog is the online version of urself
so i have to be maself
i cant do nithing else
than rather be maself aint it rite?
so i keep being dark
until i see the light in ma life
wic i know i am seeing it((:

In Death I See Life
In Life I See Death
The Sweet Relief
That I Long The Hush Of Whispering wings
Have come to Take Me
Away, away

i found it in da skinss
its just showss da other side of onee
shid wad am i toking??
i oso dun knoww
shid
shid
alrite
i saw eminem skin
but then ritee
veli oldd
oritee
and i want the tattto dat eminem has
a pic of halley((:
the new breed of eminem((:

ok got nothing to blogg about
and oso got nothing too doo
shhai
bored

ok am going to blogg about how irritating it is to fast
sarah's idea
akhaz
ok
let see yesdae dinner was take away food
and it suck
seriously
manz
i ended up not eating nithing
and this morning didnt wake up fer sahur
like WTF
am feeling so giddy
wanna take panadol
but am fasting
ang just like i said
i am werking ma butt off

i saw alot of skinss
all were dark
nice siaa

iloveyou
iloveme
ilovehim((:
whoarhs??
dunknowlehs
kkiamboored
sarahknowswhyy
akhaz

amsoo boreddd
hmpf
aint home yett
cant crap on the phonne
why cant ya be earlly?
remember supose to crap on the phone ada 12?
but have ta go out
WTF
am pissed
woke up just fer yaa
aiyorrhs
aite2
no usee gedding angryy

ok
i know i am not going to blogg fer da nxt few dayss
until then i mish ya guys out there oleadi

TO YA'LL OUT THERE:

am dividing these wishes aroundd

MALAY FRENS:

i love youu guyss

and have a meaningful rayerr ke??

duit ngan luper nk sharee tau((:

selamat hari rayerr

maaf zahir dan batinn

hope all those things dat i have done to you guys

dat ma ya down or cry ad timess

be forgivenn

cause i know i have((:

MA BABY((:
still on on the 23?

i am gonna disturb ya oritee((:

we gonna shop our last day outt togather like hell

i will take care of maself dun wori

msg me oritee((:

BLEHS

invade sumore larhss

wanna get frm me arhs?

akhazz

have a meaning full rayer okiez??

talk to ya sumtimee((:

dun talk crapp again((:

see ya after rayyerss people((:

2004-11-13T13:02:00.000+08:00

rayerr tml liaow~~
weee
akhaz but money all go mummy((:
veli kind hor?
aiyarh wadever larhss

baby is outt wid parentss i tinkkk
waliaou
called then say needa go out
hmpf~
must have forgotten manzz
aiyahr nvr mindd
am gonna werk my arse off todai

i am stuck noww
baby knows about it
but said up to mee
wad to doo
helpp
helpp
helpp
gotta cook i tink
so guys dun be suprised to see ma house in frnt page((:
fer wad?
as the house wic got burnt before rayerr((:
crappie
bbay if u readingg this
am gonna call u wen me not bz wic is ad nitee oritee
and yeashs
CAMAT ARI RAYERR SUMERR!!
luv ya guyss lotss((:

2004-11-12T10:01:00.000+08:00

MORNING!

well woke up to the voice of taufik
akhaz actually was the radio
he was talking and talking
then suddenly daphne said sumthing sweet
and taufik went"COme to pupu" or sumthing like dat
funni sia

SWEETPIE!!
like WTF
u still like bastard plaiboi?
fuck sia
dun let urself fall in love wid a fucker like dat
u deserve sumone beta canss??
he is just like ermss i dun know larhss
but ritee he deserve those roxy sluts larhss

this fucker i would not name is really one damn fucker
plaiboi besar!
poor thang

yewsdae
had a great laugh wid sarah
as usual she was teasing me wid baby!
wad da fuck orite
she had this realli cute voicee
akhaz
got off the phone wid her oni ad ard 12.30

now toking to bitch
wad da hell
she asked me fer him photo
like who said was close to him??
wad fuck larhh
aniwai baby calls!
he meesed up!!
walau

afternoon
pratically slack on the phone
had an hour talkwid baby((:
was soo fun
got to know crazee things bout baby
yeapss

ferged
i went* again
if u guys knoww me well
then u guyss know wad me trying to seyy
we were arguing about the taste of it!
akhaz
nvr mindd

ad nitee
dahne's gonee
fer gud or bad?
up to you to decide
but then taufik stays!
wad da hell
he is soo cute
and duh has a nicee voicee
and then duty calls
had to wash all those derrty plates where??
in the loo!
wad da hell ritee
cousin and me spent about an houor on itt
IN THE LOO!
akhaz
then had to clear room
cut some food
bla bla bla

alritee
dun knoww if me going to blogg tml
cause ad nitee got kenduri
ani wai
to all ma malay people reading this!
CAMAT HARI RAYERRR~!!

am going to bedd soon i suposee
alritees
me singin off((:
niytezzz

2004-11-11T13:53:00.000+08:00

3rd draft!

heyys
i change ma layout liaow
nice mans
but guess wad!
i ferged to copy ma links and taggie
now have to hunt fer it
BLUEK!

ani wai woke up supper early todae
had to follow ma aunt to GAY-lang
to go and buy food fer hari raya
it was super hot!
had to stand outside waiting fer her
fer at least an hour
and den i saw an angel!
ahaz
he was supper cute
i was ad one end
he was ad da other
he was selling bajuu
blahss
i walked pass him
and all hopes vanished
he was a MAT
well i didnt see his pants larhs
but his voice sound cartoon!
akhaz feerged it
i gt ma baby oleadi((:

ok i am going horny wid dis guy liaow
name syiddiq
akhaz like dicckay name((:
funny arhs
can die man toking to him
like the posible ways on why i can get pregnant
wen ma partner wears condom((:
akhaz ferged itt
but i can tell u ma fave
cuae his stuff is too bigg
till it broke!
blea
blea

ani wai i went to mosque
wei~!
becoming an angel sia
akhaz
den had 'zikir'
felt refreshed
while singing praisees
had an eye fer this guy
drop-dead-gorgeous((:
but nvr mind
i oleadi got one to keep ma mind occupied
so ferged about him larhhs

had this line wic is ma fav so caled song
u guys if not malay sorie
cant read or actually understand it

"tuhanku aku tidak layak untuk syurgamu tetapi aku tidak pulak sanggup ke neraka mu. ampunilah dosa ku. sesunggunya kau lah pengampun dosa-dosa besar"

the translation in malay((:
i remember yay!!

okok
wanna slack((:

backss
i halped ma daarling sweetpie wid her blog
now its nice
all thanks to me((:
ani wai sweetpie((: is ma gerl ziemah!!
yeapss
if u want u can go to her blog ad feewitlub.blogspot.com
but it aint dat ready YET
yeapss orite gerl!
lub u guyss
and gerl call me orite((:

2004-11-07T22:05:00.000+08:00

aiyorrhs amso bored canns?? i brought ma kuzzie to cutt her hair while waiting spent an hour on the fone wid sarah and as usual we crap all the way((:then she kena cutt of cause need sleep and yeahs again i was a loner there reading the magazine fer the millionth time oritee!!was way borred:/ so then she got off and yeahss afta tat went online saw sarah online. she just woke up! she look horrible. then guess wad! we went fighting wid this skewl gurl. she deserved it canns?? cant stand her lorrhs. if u reading this. ged losst can? u are just another piece of shit tat is ruining ma life. aiyorrhs todae cant tok to ma lil late nite people)): sarah, poot! cause in another 5 mins kena offline. aiyyorrhss dun know why oso. ferget it. i oso needa slp larhss.then ad nittee i talkied to my lil piglet but then kena cutt off cause sumthing croped up :/ and then msged sarah but she nvr reply larhss intending to prank her or maybe call and just as usual crapp away((: k i goota end here but not ending it widout a lil message fer ma lil piglet

PUTRI:
heyhey((: how have u beens. and as usual i wanan see the smile back. no matter wad happen u always have me to talk to oritee. just wadever happens BE STRONG.msg me back canns?? i really needa tok to you0.0!!*-iloveYOUU

SARAH:
hey gerl! i am boreed lets crap away again tonite canns?? i am seriouly bored! u read da entry before this ok?? and i changed ma outfir fer dat day AGAIN! hurhur!

2004-11-07T16:24:00.000+08:00

she leaving next year): why cant she stayy?i know i am soo gonna cry sia. any wayss
this entry is for you alrite gerl!

the year have been tough fer both of us. and i have to admit i wasnt there fer u all the while till recently and i have seen how much u meant to me.u know me in and out. u know my deepest secret and u know exactly the best way to react to my ractions. u are my best fren and of course we vows tat we will be sisters till the end((: i love you and u leaving school for the states would be tough. who would i call when i am bored?? who would i go to fer a shoulder to cry on? who would i scream ad wen i am boored?? me daily routine would change dramatically.u wold be back in feb but to another skewll. even if we are in the same country things would be diff. u say its not like u are dead and i laughed wid you but i am crying inside. its even worse now tat we are toking and crapping wid each other everydae. fuck it. i cry everytime i tink about it can! aiyorhs fren! i just want u to know even long distance frenship can werk. and if nithing u want, u can just holla ad me((: i love you and i know i will miss yoou((:

2004-11-07T11:32:00.000+08:00

yesdae slept seiruolsy late cause was reading two books. yarhs. aniwai am going out wid sarah and ma kuzzie on 23((: ma kuzzie is crossing fingers about stephan's presence! she has this major crush on SARAH'S YOUNGER BROTHER wic is duh! stephan:/ its on her mom's bdae but she gonna tell her tat she iss out to buy her a bdae present.idont larh but we have to be home by 6 or atleast leave town ad dat time cause yeah i want her to be home fer dinner wid her mom((:
i still have not decided wad to wear haizz.i thought of wearing the skirt i bought yesdae and the top but then.. kuzzie wearing jeans and sarah wearing jeans and sum gerlie top but then i oni freak wearing skirt:/ i dun knoww but if i wear jeans i got no shoee to wear wid it.. as in my shoees are ad da otheeeer house. errr cancan larhss..i wear the outfit i told sarah.. the skirt and the topp((: aiyorrhs imagine if nibodi frm skewl sees me like dat :/:/ diess!

2004-11-06T22:03:00.000+08:00

todae was the beshh((: went town wid parents and kuzzie.serioulsy pack seyy.went there to get my rayee shoee.but geuss wadd tat was the last thing i bought~! akahzz. started off at wisma and saww a really cute slipper tat match my outfit fer todae( pink shirt low jeans). and bought it. it was like 40++. and then shopped there but cantt find nithing.i saw vanessa and fren. actually ma kuzie saw herr. i only saaw her frm farr yeahyeah wanted to get a pants frm samuel and kevin but dad disaproved so headed to giordano. bought jeans and belt.total was ard 70++ and then finish shopping there. was almost time to breakfast so headed to far east fer dinner. reseve a place and went to level one to shopp. there i saw a t shirt wic was really cuttee. and ad 9.90 onii!! it has sumthing likee 'the things you shouldnt say to your teacher'. and ad series bought a skirt((: it ws those kind of crumpled kinddd nice((:and so was the price! 50 buckss cann then yeah shopp again again. then headed to thangs and buy my rayee shoee. was 40 bucks and headed home cause all was deadd

so total spent :
shoe-40
jeans and belt-70
shirt-10
skirt-50
shoee-40
shit! i spend more than 200 canss!! walau. i dieee
cant spend nimore)):

2004-11-01T09:48:00.000+08:00

eh fren
hu was calling yur fren a poser
and by the way its POSER NOT POSTER
gawd do u even noe the diff?
haiz..
it wasnt yur fren larhs
it was u!
so yeah
wadever

my days on sat was great
we had funfair and yeah
ad da same time i finally released on my stress
i was all the way ad da stall(dunking machine)
wen an incident happened
and started hanging wid siti, ir, putri
then yana, sarah's fren phone got lost
it was as per normal the sec senior
aiyarhs
ferget them larh yana
i mean God know better
ani wai
the weather was fine
and me iryani and siti tought it waould be so cooling to dunk ourself
until it started raining!
man was it cold
i was shivering
then we wanted to plai in the big tank
and so we did
it was HOT like a jacuzzi
we played in there
and was jined by hana and adela later
it was fun

then later dad took me from skewl
i was like urinating in da bus sia..
i had no DRY clothes to wear to go town fer dinner
and mum had to buy fer me the pants wid a tight fiting top
haiz...
i dun wanna blog no more
haiz going to town ad 12
so ad nite thn me blog larhs

2004-10-28T18:05:00.000+08:00

i am so tired orite
i helped caried this paintings wid carolyn
and it was HEAVY!
seriously
anyway i got no mood to blog
but to let out the emotions
i have to

i am fucking disapointed sia
i truted her soooo much
but she wanna be so fucked up to her seniors
go and tell larhs
anyway she did
and senior just wen rolling her eyes
do watever u want
cause u gguys should be showing and example
but wad fucking attitude are u showing to yur own senior??

fuck larhs
i am so blardy pissed
and fer the first timed
i showed it to her
i cant help it

got a good talk wid julia just now
and to tell u the truth
both pat and bitch was saved by the bell man
or else i would have blown up infrnt of evelibodi
seriously
why cant they accept my decision??
why cant they understand?

k i got to really say sumthing to pat and fer u fucking bitch..
i am really sorry i gotta ged out
but its not wat i want but
i seriously cant
i cant do it animore
pple wld ask why
cause the fucking reason is
the 'thing' is not there nimore
if i would do it
its the blardy same thing as asking a disabled person to run
i know u pat is damn pissed
wid me
but please
as a fren
i dont want to do it
but i have to

update again ad nite orites

2004-10-23T23:13:00.001+08:00

i just know the truth
the reason why we had the strange problem
i dont know why
but i cant help it
but to worry about u

i can trust nobody nomore
first it was sis
then it is you

you seriously know
i hate her
yet u tell her about our problem?
i dont know where i stand in your life
cause after wad happen
i cant trust you nomore

hah!
i even think we could last?
to make me even think you loved me?
i was soo bardy stoopid!

but i dont know
maybe cause u were my first ever love
the love is still there
kak poot said
'first love will always last'

i know sumhow i cant slp tonite w/o crying

2004-10-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

i got no reason fer living nomore!

i just needa get out of this STOPPID LIFE~

2004-10-23T10:20:00.000+08:00

sigh.. its 10.22 early in the morning
kuzzie is at ma home
slept over
later ad nite celebrating bdae of younger kuzzie
like wad the hell
ma dae is gonna be boring sey

i just found out
ma other kuzzie is on MIA
i dun know wad it means but
she kena caught fer drinking by dad
haiz..

k
do later

2004-10-19T20:58:00.000+08:00

i am sitting here wid ma seriously baggy t's
and letme add it looks like a three quater t'shirt
wid ma F*ck band and chokers.
ma kuzzie say i look havoc sia
this would be a thrid time me blogging rite??
hahaha

todae had a nice dinner but sumhow i vomited AGAIN
seriously
i pity ma granny man
she cooked one of her best dishes
but i had to vomit evelithang out
haiz..
sumthing wrong wid ma tummy and i know it
cause its not ma first time having this 'sickness'
i would try ma best to go to schl tml
cause i seriously tired restless and sick
but tat would be noticeable
if u minus of ma dancing and shouting ad hme
i called ma kuzzie like 4 times
cause as usual i was bored and i had to bug someone
i practically wen horny wid Htun linn, ma god bro
talked crap wid shah
hes crappie
tat is why i said nice
can i add tat hes sweet??
tat would be too gay rite??
so i wouldnt

it was the hardest but i had to do it
i dont want her to be hurt
and i did
it made a tear drop
but i dun give a damn
now i am told to lay off
so fine i lay off

argh
i am soo sick of ma past
i cant stand it
wouldnt it be better if i would just like die
so no one would be able to get hurt??
so tat it would be easy fer everyone??

but i cant
i tried
but i cant
i still have the words ringing in ma head
kak putri's word
carolyn's word
cassie's word

i cant leave them
cause they led me out of the woods
cause
it would be said stingy
it would be dissapointing

i dont know how to say it

i am sick of the pretend smile infrnt of evelione
the holding back of tears
the voice inside of me stopping me to scream
wen it is the best time to

maybe i wrote the poem 'sucidal' fer a reason
so tat in a way pple noe how i feel living in the world

i end here
i end ma entry here
hopefully ma life soon

2004-10-19T11:40:00.001+08:00

i am booored
haven i said tat yesdae??
seriously life has been so boring
i cant go out cause of fasting
so i am stuck ad home
watching movies and chatting 24 hours
yeap
now toking to ma bro(kuzzie)
and this weird gerl
she said she tikam ma addie
and found me
so yeah i believed the lame excuse
man she is vlardy stoopid
dun noe wads culture??
and her own boo she doesnt know
and said ma boo is kewl
like wadever
some fuck up p5 bitch
thinks she some kind of hiphop
bloody gross

any way kak putri brought up a topic ad her bloogie
harharhar
i aint no discriminating no one
but this bitch seriously must wake up
she aint no living in some fucking dream world
having mushy stuff all over
tats sick
seriously sick
come on larhs
if ani one sees it
and report
tat will be the end of her sia
wish u the best

shit i am so fucking vulgar
zhen li must be going
"now then you know"
harharhar
i am back to ma old roots
listening to sum anger music
tat is wad ma kuzzie catogarise emnem music as
funny[not]

Trying hard to reach out
But, when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray I could break away

tat is wad i fellin now
no one is here fer me
kak put is the one
who always kena bombarded wid ma probs
ma baby dhiya doesnt know nithing much about me
ma shit talker frens are not onnline
ma baby is online
but aint toking to me

wad can i do now??
rather ending ma new chapter of life here
i wish......

2004-10-19T11:40:00.000+08:00

2004-10-18T13:43:00.000+08:00

i am booooooooored here ad home
i dun know wad to do.
i have to wait fer ma kuzzie to come home before rentin gmovies AGAIN!
i am seriously bored..
should i change ma layoout
but it was just done yesdae
haiz i seriously don noe wad to do
am going to teach ma kuzzie cause she is having xams soon
hmm i tink i am going to write on ma other bloggie
i oso fergot the url larhs..
since i am bored am going to write and edit EVERYTHING THERE!
i am so pisseed wid da com
i cant open certain pages
and all ma other stuff will like be there fer a SECOND and then "BOOM" gone
haiz
must try to keep ma temper down

i am waiting fer sha to cme home and we can tok crap again!
toking crap is my pastime
but sha makes it interesting

well well
people thinks that me and sha are togather! HARHAR!

nonononononononononnono

the world presenting SHAH![i am bored yeah]
sha is:
ma gd fren
loveable guy who is able to make a gd bro to everyone
a fren's of my fren
a member in PSJ

urm i dun oleadi shit!!

hahaha
i am cracking up
there is this 16 year old MAT hu is interested in hillary duff and mka!
liek wad da f*k
he is 16 years old! grow up!
and there is this bloordy guy hu added me in friendster lorhs
add me lydia and kak putri
i mean obivious he is those mats wic i hate
YUCK! BLUEK!
he's friendster is filled wid gerls sia..

kk i end here
later add again

2004-10-18T11:41:00.000+08:00

dont move on dont move on dont move dont move dont move dont move on
you brought me to highest the mountain
out of my deepest pair
you dont know how much i need you
to stand beside you
to breath your air

dont move on, dont move on, dont move, dont move, dont move, dont move on
behind the doors, people awaiting, people awaiting
to spot you on

thats the song i got stuck on my head.
its nice.got the song from COTDQ
i think there goes my dream of playing *
me and julia kinda dun have the interest in it no more
julia is now into playing badminton
fer me i am into dancing
me and kuzzie were cheograpying a song yesdae nite ad 12 orh.
superstar by jamelia.
i dun tink it is that bad fer a beginner like me orhs
ani wai i wanna get this strait nobodi said this before
but then rite
i am into dancing not cause cas or piglets into dancing
its just one hobby i picked up the way
people changed and that is what i did.
i confessed to julia yesdae
and she said i did the right thing
well during recovery,
i got down wid some taps and movies wid fast music and yeah
it stuck to me
i just wanna make that public announcment
yeap

2004-10-17T13:23:00.000+08:00

i am toking to sha now...
we are pratically toking crap rite??
hahaha i changed ma layout
nice or not
sha said it is creepy
dun noe y
i seriously think it is nice lorhs!
the story about me and ma bros is seriously tru lorh
it sounds weird but yeap
it is true
hahaha
freaky huh??
i dun know how ma two bros look like sia
yesdae made zhen li pissed sia..
and she kept on saying the word dick dick
hahaha
laughed alot todae
ma kuzzie broghten ma dae
ma lil kuzzie oso
sha has been toking crap to me
hahaha.
be grateful!!
at least u got sumone to tok to orite!!!(fer sha)

sha has been realli nice to me this fer daes
and i am grateful fer tat
thanks alot yeah

k needa go pray and go fer class
then go to granny house
haiz
kk

buhbyez
update later ad nite

2004-10-16T13:58:00.000+08:00

I JUST SO F*KING REALISE THAT I HAD TWO BROS. haha. this is lame but then wen i was ad da market wid aunt i saw this small cena boys. they look blardy familiar.then yeah i realised that they look like ma bros.

a baby was born and that baby was me.my mother had to go to work and never wants to get a maid so i was left wid a neighbour. she had two boys. they were never the kind hu i would have a crush on(come on! i was oni a year old!) i fergot their age. ani wai i know they are like 5 - 7 years older than me.so yeah..i spend have of ma childhood life in that small house. then ad da age of 7 i had to leave. the small house of mine was sold to an unknown person. i totally fergot abt them until early last year i met then ad JP. one was finishing A levels another was in sec 3.yeah..freaky how memories just appear to come back just like dat.

i remmebred once wen i was looking thru the oldold albums i saw the pics of us.. haiz... can u imagine how ungrateful i am.. dun even remember hu i spend ma childhood wid.

guys(ma bros) if u are reading this send me an email... or call nenek k?? i miss you guys..

2004-09-26T19:09:00.000+08:00

These words are my own, from my heart flow,I love you, i love you, i love you, i love you,
There's no other way to better say I love you, i love you

i can trust nobodi no more
i dont even can trust ma own toughts now
ma studies are going down
you are pissed wid me fer no reason
i left ma baby fer a good reason
cause i know she/he can do so much more w/o me
thats the reason i dont call u ni more

made a big mistake but now i gotta facethe consequenses of my actionbut
until you're back here in my arms
I'll never have the satisfactionI know, u know...
that I'm sorry
I never meant to heart you
is there anything that i can do
to make it up to you
I'll do anything baby.....
cuz I'm sorryI never meant to make you cry
i dont want to say good byeI'm sorry, Sorry that I lied

i am copying this style cause i dont give a shit
i dont know wad i am toking abt
tml last dae of xams then i can cry ma heart out
i dont know why
i cant keep da tears fer ani longer
i cant keep on putting a fake smile on me
i saw julia cry
jean cried todae
i dont know how can i keep da tears wid dem arond crying
argh!

I knew that this was heaven sent
cuz i was destined
to be dreaming you,
and now i messed it up
i pray to god.......
that you will forgive me
Just take me in your arms and hold me all night long
until you will never leave me

2004-09-24T21:45:00.000+08:00

im here again.
explorin here blog.sorry atiqah.
heehs. im bored lah girl. :D
i shall make this entry colourful.
be sure no pink is here.
ANTI-PINK girl is in the house.
HEEHS.
aandd. she's still on hiatus.
i think its cos of exams.
haiz.
GOOD LUCK GIRL.
did i tell u it'll be colourful!

iryani helps you blog again

2004-09-11T17:11:00.000+08:00

dear aitqah is on hiatus
miss iryani will come and invade her deary blog.
haven't talk to her for awhile.
don't know what's going on.
anyhooooooooos. i think i rock.
IRYANI rocks all of your sock. ((:
sorrrry atiqah im really bored.
but however atiqah is on hiatus.

2004-08-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

heyss YANI here. muahaha.
atiqah is like somewhat grounded from the comp.
but she comes in ILLEGALLY.
so here to like help her do up up the blog and stuff like that.
haha

iryani out

2004-07-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

heyz.. bee sumtim since i blogged ritey? ani wai me rite arm is urm... how to say?? cant move.. yarh.. damn irritating lorh...yarh..u see got stung by a freaking bee in class!! wad da hell rite?? den yeah its oleadi PAINFUL! den suddenly two hours afta da sting.. Ma hand went numb!! cant move carolyn brought me to da genrl office..ok not carolyn but carolyn..eli..kyn.. and zhen li i tink..yup.. den called ma dad to pick me up...den brought me to da docs...said da sting is pressing against ma nerve da in controlling ma rite hand. yeha aiyorh shit larh pain liaow..ok
den yarh.. todae smss against rgs.. we lost by a few points.. urm ard 15?? but its okies.. atleast dey tried dier best rite?? k larh stop here lurVes u Guys lotZ~

2004-07-18T21:04:00.000+08:00

HEY!! dad agreed to put a bball hoop in ma room!! yay!!! and all i needa buy is a small ball to go wid it!!! hehehex damn bloody happe!!lolx ok cant stay fer long!!! k dat is it!!

2004-07-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

hehehehe went out to town...cause got grandma mah.. den mum tot wanna brng grandma out.. den grandma sum how choose town.. or waz it i choose?? well wadeva larh... den we went to urm far east to have dinner there(u see we went like ad 5.30) den on da way up to the fodd court met wid priscilla.. daphane... and sum otha gerls frm ma skewl!! hehehe incase u didnt know i was wearing a knee length skirt wic i purposely fold to make it look shorter..wid ma hair done up and a really low v cut shirt!i know i know i kinda change ma clothes last two months larh.. yeah dey were like wow.. tats da new u.. lolx man.. yup2.. den da rest of da day was ok-ok larh.. den we went to paragon.. hehe urm.. diz is gonna be weird but i bought this really really really really really really really cute hand bag!! morgan brand.. damn bloody cute.. it is love ad first sight :P hehehe.. yeah but dam x lorh.. fergot da price but 50-70 there larh.. man i falling fer it.. lol ok larj.. wont be updating nimore i guys needa catch up wid ma werks!! k laarh.. buhbYez!!

2004-07-17T12:14:00.000+08:00

it have been daes since i like wrte rite?? iziit?? i dun noe larh.. well yeha schl sucks big time.. find ma slf eitehr snoring away or yeah doing other things...well lets see.. adiks bedae cmg up.. dun noe wad to buy fer her sey... yeah todae massive.. or bulishik got sum stuff ad sng poly..yup..sowie i cnt go but thanks fer inviting me though (:(:..yup...nthing much happen laltely..oh yesh!!ma left ankle is worse!!!argh.. idiotic. and kak was a grt help though.. keep kicking me sey..haiz.. i tink i can ferget abt playing ni sports fer da nxt few mths .. if i really wanna it healed...argh i hate it man.. yup.. and if i ever do want to play sports.. dad gonna gimme his 1248784321 lecture..haiz.. ok larh i tink tat is it.. gonnna make do ma hw... yup2 being da gud gal now...

HEY MASSIVE!!GUD LUCK FER DA PERFORAMNCE TODAY!!!!!! (: (:

2004-07-15T20:31:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe wads happening now..u avoided me fer daes.. and here i am trying to compromise wid ya...i dun noe wad to do wid ya...all i wanna sae i cnt make it diz sat.. and i noe u are damn dissapointed.. and i wanna apologise to ya..ill make it up to u i promise u tats fer sure..ok??hope ya understand...now wad i wanna neo is... if u feel beta wid her.. den i cnt sae nithing cause u have ur choice.. but yeah.. da feeling may not be in ya.. but remember i still love ya.. i just felt left out... wen she tld me dat. and if u ike her.. i cnt sae nithing... maybe our love was not meant to last...yeah but i love u.. and u beta remember dat (: (:

2004-07-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

You
You came like a wind
but then u stayed
stayed by my side thru day or nite
not knowing uwherethe
u will go or stay
but remember i love u since that day

you are da lite
in da darkest nite
you are da strength
against my fear and frights
you are da laghter i seek fer
after my cries
and i find myself loving
u more at every site!!

NICE??DID DAT TODAE DURING MALAY PERIOD!! HEHEEH OKOK

bulishik
where are u?? hmpf!! waited fer u!! nitez k buhbyez!!

2004-07-11T21:35:00.000+08:00

hmm.. to dae ish.. sundae.. tml skewl larh.. haiz.. i dun wanna go!! lolx ma mum hear dat sure kena sclding one.. niwaiz..waiting fer bullishik to cme online.. wad da hell rite?? nvr tok or msg at all one whole dae..ok enough ma dae wasnt dat bad larh todae... we did grp werk in sundae schl...yeha den gt to noe sum new gerls.. well actually not new but nvr toked to dem like ever?? yeah ok.. den msg piglet btu nvr reply guess studyin so yarh.. hmm i end ma entyr here.. nedda do revision larh... piglet..and ma 6 darlinks in school... i dun neo wad to do widout u.. ok?? lurve ya guys...

pIgleT a.k.a pUTri
hey goody lucky fer ya xmas okiez?? luRve Ya l0tZ!!

kuZziE a.k.a fAhriYah
hey kuzzie wanna sae thanks fer todae oritey!! niwaiz.. gud luck wid AKRAB!!!! lolX (:

bulushIk
hey waited fer ya but nvr cme online guess it is not da dae fer us to toked like YESDAE!! hehehe.. had a grt time toking yesdae.. cheered me up sumhow.. ok?? hoodnitez... take gud care of ya self!!! buhbeyz..

k dats it peepz.. wanna go!!! LURVE YA GUYS LOTZ!!!! even i dun sae it alot.. ya!! buhbyez..

2004-07-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

i just wanna thank God fer giving me 6 mths to spend wid ya.. prayed fer u always.. but yeah and now.. got bulishik.. manz.. one afta another.. wad to do.. haiz.. ani wai stayed ad home.. dne went lib ard afternoon.. manz.. can u imagine.. da teens section.. diz couple snuggling dwn dere??disguysting.. den went hme msged bulishik but nvr reply gueesed bz.. den learn lines fer my play on thurs dae.. GOD I HATE PLAYS!!den.. yeah.. called just now.. toked fer awhile..den dais msg me but nr guess.. fwen dun allow larh.. yeah...den now waiting to cme online.. os yeah.. while doing sum research online.. k dat is it..

putri a.k.a pReacIous piGlety
ged well soon dearie!! take gud care k? SEE U IN SCHL!! and gud LUCKY fer ya XaMs!!

buLishiK
got nThing to Sae!! loLx.. juZ soriE fer Not t0oking much diZ daeZ..sowie Yeah..

PIgLet a.k.a syeila

hey wassUp l0nG time no Hang arD!!

2004-07-09T17:24:00.000+08:00

hehe..thankies to piglet!! yeah.. PUTRI PIGLETY!!! she did ma bloggie fer me... now she slping.. shes sick....haiz..yeah and den.. and den... nthng much happen recently larh.. just doing sum stuff now.. k dta is it!!

PIglet a.k.a pUtrI
ThankiEz...

buLishiK
where are u manz...

yeah long time no blog yeah i know... hehehe

2004-07-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

yeah long time no blog yeah i know... hehehe sowie yeah.. ni waiz.. learn two new wrds... bulishik...and acme!! hehe bod same meaning larh.. yeah bulishik teach me...been nice to fer da pas few daes.. yeah.. nthing but ask me to eat oni!! i dun wanan eat onli during luch ah.. but still!!i dun wanan eat larh.. starving cuz all of u piggy!! lolx.. yeha niwaiz.. loook forward to da nxt few daes i oso dun noe y.. harharhar... yeah

Piglet a.k.a PutrI*
hey goody luvky fer ya xams orite.. yeah

SistAz a.k.a syeila
hey goody luvky fer ya xams orite.. yeah

bulishik
hey good luck fer ya eng paper tml orite!! yeah yeah... hmm nvr study rite.. i knw ni wai gud luck yeah??remember to tok to me even if u bz k??? GOODDY LUCKY!!!

dat is it.. love u guys.. especially one of u... MUAHS...MXuaxCkXXXXXXs!!!

2004-07-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

sigh.. juz cam bck... frm dat opening thing larh.,.. well it wouldnt be fun widout vanessa.. she just sumhow cn make ppl laugh.. well actually she hei tung.. and da grp were like looking ad da acs boys.. i mean yeah pratically looking or shld i say staring..ma god... i regret sitting ad da corner ad first.. cuz dey were sitting ad our row.. den thank god dey moved up and yeah.. but they pass us ALOT!! to look ad hei tung or fer wadeva reason larh.. but they did!! man.. den ad da end.. dey wanted to ask hei tung num.. den he was like aiyah no neeed larh no need.. damn cute larh.. but not ma kind.. den on da way back.. hei tung and annabell(or howeve u spell) they got prank msges by sylvia and sweeney... lolx damn funni larh... yeah da opening was not dat bad larh.. kinbda kewl yeah..

so.. hmm tat is abt it larh.. da sec 4and5 juz finish xam.. sec 2 and 3 having their nxt week.. we sec 1?? dun have onli comman test and dat is it larh..yeah...so yeah..

2004-06-26T13:06:00.000+08:00

here i sitting now aft a faboulous dream of mine... lolx.. stupid but nice.. ahhh... hehehhe.. an wai.. yesdae she said left..left ma world..everything of her is gone... EVERYTTHING!onli memories are left.. tat is it.. gerl.. i dun noe u nimore.. and have a pleasant life stranger...take care...and gd luck fer n levels..

2004-06-24T23:04:00.000+08:00

ma family are all ma house!!! haha so funni... we aall satrted having serious talk den made it to a joke... and ma kuzzie on a karoake in ma room... den sarted singing and dancing on ma bed... well yeah.. i am juz releasing all da sadness i have... by singing i guess.. was damn fun orh...den ma lil babi kuzzie ard 1 year plus started dancing hah had fun... ma uncle started a chain and we danced ard da room hahaha... k lah i guess i needa top here...
TATS IT~
PEACE OUTY!!!

2004-06-23T00:23:00.000+08:00

went to wild wild wet ritey...kinda fun... but damn expensive orh...yeah but fun.. so.. urm.. toke da ular-lah ride.. twice... nice.. and yeah da rest is da same arh.. lolx.. ma kuzzie. da elder one was boy-cotting anz.. lolz... she is a boy crazee...haha.. so it is like hey dat boy is so cute and stuff like dat arh..yeah.. and..nthing much to write arh...kk lah me wnna go off... hmm.. nitez peepz..

2004-06-22T00:46:00.000+08:00

well da daaes are nt fer me.. went out wid ma parents on mondae and yeah went bck ad 3 am in da mawning hmm... yeah was totally wipe out manz...dat dae was kinda cool bought alot of clothes... and soem vcds.. hmm... i tink we mom spend almst 1000 on us four?? well u see y 4 cuz ma kuzzies tag along.. yeah.. went to reat wrld.. was kinda ok.. or shld i sae grt?? kuz i tot it was all dat high royal place.. but nt tat bad.. yeah..and den i went to urm..heren took neo prints wid kuzzie...yeah then went some where else.. den ad last we wen to the beach ad ard 1 in da mawning...it was juz all peace and quiet.. cold and juz nice... i mena yeah ther ei was stting dwn juz ooking to nowhere.. and i sit dwn.. enjoy it... i juz release all those stressness i ahd for pass few weeks.. all tat fiting... all tat sadness i had widin me...had it all out there.. fer juz one moment... and den i dun noe this is strnge but i fell asleep and den.. yeah.. all da memories well noth good and bad memories i had all came to me in ma dream yeah while slping ad da beach... all like flash back or smthing...den ma kuz pushed me dwn... lolx almst fall manz.. and yeah i woke up.. had dat sudden tears caming dwn.. i mean u shld noe... if u have tat moment wen u noe its all perfect and den suddenly one foolishness can cause a relationship to break.. tats xpalin da tears..i dun noe but guess tat is da reason manz.. sigh.. manz.. well lately been hearing alot of 1st ladi yup and heard one of thier songs sigh.. and been stoning to one of their songs

here goes

iknow u know tat i'm sorry
i never meant to hurt u
is there anything tat i can do to make it up to u
i do anything or anyway
cause i am sorry
i never meant to make u cry
and i dun wana say goodbye
but everything happens fer a reason

well tats all dat matter..... hmm... i dun noe i like da lyrics menas alot of thing to me.. well yeah tat is it. and to u girl.. msg me once u come bck.. juz wanna talk..

TATS IT!!
PEACE OUTY~

2004-06-19T02:04:00.000+08:00

sigh... ad can i say... da hols are bad fer me.. well u neo hu u are.. so no need to intro or nithing...yeah.. well... i dun wanna it to end either.. but it is juz hard... it is hard to feget wad u actully did to me...afta all da concern and stuff.. u juz blow up.. i was kinda upset abt ur actions.. and all u tin is tat i dun care.. i dun bother how u feel?? now.. waid a min.. u have known me long enough to noe dat i am not tat kinda person.. afta wad u wrte on ur blog.. well... letme tell ya smthing... i got all mix feelings... i juz wanan die... wanna leave u alone... cuz i know dat is wld make life better and easier fer ya... alot easier!! and u tink all diz while i am angry ad u... having hatred feelings... yes i do.. but been tearing non-stop... all does sleepless nite i have juz tinking wad to do...tinking if i continue how far can it go?? wad if i end... where will i be?? i dun noe but i wanna end diz relationship badly.. cause i cant see maself hurt nimore.. i dun want to.. not again.. i have seen it too many times... well to tell ya da truth... i too have been doing it... didnt wanna to.. but could not help ad all...it hurt too much... ni waiz.. yeah u have to get me strait... i wanna diz to end.. but ad da same time.. i dun want it too!!it diff to letcha go...afta wad we have been thru..ahh!!! wad am i toking abt?? ni waiz... suga... thanks if onli we cld wid out getting xpel... and lil fwen.. hey cnt i blog hop?? i oleadi have one larh... pweash... and mrs ang... thanks fer da advice... will make use of it one day...nas dun mind i take this frm ya...

letting go of someone dear to u is hard, but holding on to someone who dont even feel the same is much harder.. giving up doesnt mean ure weak, it means dat ure strong enuf to let it go

tats ma last wrd...
peace outy~

2004-06-17T01:26:00.000+08:00

hmm....... juz got bck... was kinda tiring... ma nose...is RED!! well not exactly.. but it is.. argh i look like a clown.. -sob- yupyup... hmm its been daes since i toked to her.. well actually todae i didnt tok to her... didnt ask her abt her condition or nithing...sigh... innocent ladae... pweash.. tag ad ma tag borad telling me how u been so far.. pweash.. worried wo death.. sorie didnt tok to u.. mom was using com.. orite?? miss ya.. take gud care oritey?? mxuacks.....love ya lotz..take gud care.. till we meet again.. cya

2004-06-16T12:45:00.000+08:00

found a nice song wic fit me perfectly...

Yeah,Yeah

Get up, Get out
Move on, move up,
there’s no doubt
I’m all wrong, you’re right
It’s all the same with you
I’m too fit, too fat
You miss why
So why,
So why,
So why,
So why

On and on,
And on and on,
On and on,
And on and on…

::Chorus::
Don’t want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey!
Take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away,
Away,
Away,
Away,
Away…

‘Round and ‘round,
Here we go again
Same old start, same old end
Turn my head
And turn back again
Same old stuff,
Never ends

Do this, do that
Can’t deal, can’t deal with that
I tune in, tune out
I’ve heard it all before
Hello, goodbye
Never asking me why,
Goodbye,
Goodbye,
Goodbye…

On and on,
And on and on,
On and on,
And on and on…

::Chorus::
Don’t want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey, take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away,
Away,
Away,
Away,
Away…

::Chorus::
Don’t want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey, take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away,
Away,
Away,
Away,
Awayyyyyayyyyayyyyy…

::Chorus::
Don’t want to grow up
I want to get out
Hey, take me away
I want to shout out
Take me away,
Away,
Away,
Away,
Away…

‘Round and ‘round here we go again
Same old story, same old end
Turn my head
And turn back again
Same old stuff,
Never ends

Turn my head
And turn back again
Same old stuff,
Never ends
its frm da freaky friday movie...

2004-06-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

hey!! ma lil fren hu is not lil nimore has one guy!!!! ah!!! hu wld have tot she wld have manz...lolx...ni waiz.. i needa chill manz.. where is she??... OK!! I NEED TO CHILL.. AND I REALLY MEAN CHILL... GIRLIE!! WHY MUZ YA TELL ME???!! OKOK.. chilled ni waiz.. days aint tat bad larh.. but where is dis freakinbg soul... hmm.. k daddy wanna use com.. buhbyez!!!

2004-06-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

tear rolled dwn went i read it.. not tears filled wid sadness but wid happiness...close the door opemed it up.. and read.. slowly one by one.. i lauged at some parts.. tears rolled wen i read one in particular... i dun noe.. y but it just made me realised how much i cared fer this being.. how much i have hurt her.. in just one letter...how much i have taken granted of her.. well not really.. but once...yeah.. how much.. this being cared fer me.. no matter wad.. this being.. had done much in ma life.. gave me strength.. gave me confidence.. gave me bck ma smiles.. laughter.. joy.. wen it have all been stolen away...she wrote this...'u have always been in ma heart and it is hard to let u go. u have always made my day wid ya laughter and smiles'.. tat was just it.. and it said it all.. but i tink it has been da other way.. U have always made MY day wid ya laughter smiles.. jys..i just wanna thank you.. i remember how hard i had to write tat letter to u.. how much i had to say tat i know i will lose u to her one day.. but its all in da past.. th e wind had takken it wid it.. and it gave me tat reilef...

hmm tat was good.. ahhh now feeling better.. but u are jot in!! ask ppl go online but where are... GOD KNOWS WHERE!!hmm.. nebemind larh.. i got ma tebby faiznur here to talk to.. ma
8th dahlink to talk to..vanessa lalink...ah.. tml going out...wid ma mama.. hmm.. is she going buy fer me da skirt i dun noe...hmm.. yeah.. todai wemnt to schl to collect book but she nvr mark wad.. den meet addne.. for once.. she is wearing her specs!! she look more martured... prefer her wid her contacts.. yeah den went mc.. lolx.. sat beside this couple.. lolx den this love song came oon da radio.. and she wnet singing!!!we were laughing okiez...and den we went hme... on da way hme in 66 i took her wallet awell got it but she had to wad..jump on e to reach the other side and get the wallet wad... damn pain lorh.. she very light.. and i eman light... argh.. lol larh.. ni waiz.. dne got tuition.. wasnt tat bad todai.. den got home.. granny wnet off to msia fer smthing larh.. so yeah.. den now larh.. hmm..

addne dahlink.. i'll kill u once we meet again!! hehehehe.. love ya lots.. take care yeah dahlink... muacks!miss ya!hugs and kisses to ya...

vanessa lalikk....hehehehe.. horny gerl!! dun flirt i tell u.. lol..k lah love u lots.. and i cnt dunp da rest fer ya...:S sorie.. but u will have to get the honour for the horniest lalink ..(: (:..muuuuaaaahhhh

enida.. take gud care.. long to hear ya voice on da pphone.. love ya ...muacks!!

sarah.. gal wassup? y nr call?? k lah.. love ya.. take care yeah...

PIGLET!!! hei kak putri...hmm.. love ya lotz.. muachs!!

kak syeila... heys girlie... :D miss ya.. love ya lots..

yin lalinkkkkkkssss...... buy fer smthing there in where ever ua re k!! take gud care!! reach sg safely!! miss ya love ya lotsz...

tat is it pEOPLE
PEACE OUTY!!!~~~

2004-06-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

heyz peepz.. i cnt take this ni more!! i ahte it.. i hate it... i mean i hate u i hate u.. i hate u!!!!!!!!!!!!!! here i am trying my best to tok to her.. but wad is she doing?? GOD KNOWS WAD!!!hmm.. i dun noe larh..ani waiz.. ma tebby.. faiznur wanna help.. its nt tat i dun want kiez?? it is juz i dun wana be a bother to u.. kiez?? ma dae was orite... hmm.. tot of going into ma dahlink blog and blog fer her.. nvr blog fer God knows how many days.. hmm.. yeah i guess tat is it.. fer todai.. gt know mood to blog yeah okiez.....

2004-06-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

hey juz came bck frm shopping wid ma aunt!!feel so much beta now.. since mawning i juz got tat hmm.. sadness in me.. if u read ma enrty before larh den u noe.. yeah so now i am reading this book called the angels trilogy.. aunty bought fer me.. lets see.. bought a new purse.. yeah.. and new kinda braclet larh.. nice frm.. 77 street.. hmm.. i tink it is kinda glassy larh.. ni waiz.. yeah...wasnt tat bad larh far east.. onli saw some seniors dere..:S kinda weird.. cause urm.. i was wearing stuff tat i wasnt suppose to.. well at last nt infrnt of dem larh.. yeah.. den.. ARGH!! well it is nt tat i dun like this but NURUL STOP SMSING ME WEN I AM NOT FREE KIEZ??so sorie larh.. but then.. muz u ask me.. where am i?? who am i with?? what am i wearng and some other crappy stuf?? pweash.. it is not tat i dun like it.. but den.. it is just irritating larh.. ani waiz.. went to borders.. found this new manga book!! damn nice.. hot gimmicks.. smthing like dat!! nice man.. and funny.. should buy it... yeah and hmm.. iam going to far east wid ma mama this sat!! :):):):) hmm i really wanna get a skirt!! well not ani kind but this one...ah.. nice..*drools* yeah.. and i wanna this other pants.. lets see.. 39 bucks i tink.. damn nice.. gonna get it no matter wad larh.. and lets see.. i wanna get this love shape necklace...4 bucks..yeap!! and urm... lots more larh.. gonna shop xtra mad.. hmm.. i tink tts is it..will update lata ad nite yeah.. guess i dun tink tat i will be writing the love u thingy.. cause it will bring bck th memory

2004-06-09T11:04:00.000+08:00

hey peepz...its 11 now.. or so larh.. woke up since 10 plus and juz lay ard.. sigh.. yeah lisening to 1st ladi the.. never be replaced song.. ah.. nice songz manz...yeah.. one hu is damn freaking emo will cry... yeah well ma daez we not tat bad.. not tat gud either.. been ad home.. fer the past two days.. todae ma autie bringing me outz.. yah to town.. mite eb going far east wanna get some new stuff.. yeah.. well lets see..

mondae huh?? yeah was ad home i tink.. doing ma stuff.. revising some schl werks... wasnt tat bad larh.. onli tta i woke up ad 2?? yeah.. i tink i wrote tat dwn so yeah waste ma time onli..

tuesadae... wasnt tat bad had tuition... den went home played wid ma lil kuzzie.. damn cute..hehehehz... yeah we palyed smake and ladder... well not exactly larh.. he juz keeps on putting the stuff in his mouth.. heheheh... yeah.. den went bck to ma studies larh.. i have to say ma tuition is nt tat bad larh.. kinda have good time wid her.. so yeah...kinda looking ferward to more of those tuitions..(:(:(:(: yeah den.. hmm.. suddenly something juz struck ma mind.. hmm.. i dun noe how to sae this.. since it is private and kinda embarassing.. and ma kuzzie is behind me!! argh... kk shes gone... yeah..

well i tink me and this one is drifting aprt.. sigh.. if i give her stuff she say she nvr receive it and gimme all kinda crappy reasons larh.. ok.. its da holidays.. and mite be she wants to do her own stuff ALONE so yeah fine wid me.. but hu was the one hu said we were drifting apart?? she.. and now.. hu is drifting apart frm hu?? sigh.. i dun noe wad to say.. i juz have to do wats best fer us.. so tat we dun hurt each others feeling nimore.. so yeahz... i dun noe larh.. but i tink the song willl xpain it all.. if i hurt u tat much.. da other time.. i am sorry larh.. u were the one hu mend me wen i am broken.. but now..u were the one hu broke me wen i am fine.. so i am really stuck here... i cnt tink of anithing to do.. juz to help us.. maybe u are bz wid ma life.. and i am bz wid mine.. okiez.. i tink tat it is...

BURN
Girl, understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

yeah tat is the song.. will update lata ad nite... yeah love ya lotz pepz..and juz wanna say.. kak syeila.. yeah.. thanks fer all the advice u gave me.. even after wad had happen...

hyez..

2004-06-08T14:21:00.000+08:00

heyz... hmm cnt say much as i am smuggling in here... juz wanna say this i juz miss this person so much. hmm dun noe y.. maybe have not been seeing him/her fer sometime...sigh... juz wanna tell tat person sooo much bt.. sigh...cnt..nonono.. nt cnt but afraid to.i dun noe y.. ssigh.. ni waiz.. made new song... lolx to kak putri... and addne... and kak amelia.. and kak syeila...

hey sis i love u and i dun wanna letcha go
but if i have to sis i wanna letcha noe
all the smile we make can nvr be erase
and i promise u tat u will nvr be replaced

yeah tat is it... love u.. and miss ya'll

2004-06-07T14:21:00.000+08:00

heyz juz woke up ad ard 2 i tink yeah and i heard ma kuzzie playing this song.. damn nice...

NEver be re place
[Chorus]
Baby I love you and i'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me too
Until the end of time
From the day I met you
I know we've be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and i wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to feel enough to kisses
I can say i'm truly happy to the same
You've made me think I'll die and live my life hesitate
There's never been no doubt in my mind
That i'll regret ever having you by my side
But if the day come that i'll have to let you go
I think that something I should probadly let you know
With everything that i spent with you
Then i will miss you cuz i'm happy that i have you at all

[Repeat Chorus]

I feel for you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

2004-06-07T00:04:00.000+08:00

heyz... juz finished watching pratical magis... sandra bullock and nicole kidaman.. was damn great.. best show i ever watced.. fer now at least..even better than bring it on.. da cheerleading movie... niwaiz...

yeah went out one whole dae.. since noon.. lets see.. went to watch hp.. was damn freaking nice.. but dun remmebr ani parts out cuz it has been sometimes since i read da bk.. yeah.. tom felton looks damn great it dat movie!! wid his new hair do..*drools* yeah.. hmm.. daniel?? he juz look... hmm.. i dun noe.. weird i guess... da same guy.. onli fer da voice.. seem rather hm.. rough?? yeah..tat emma.. well.. she look da same.. well maybe i didnt observe her ad da beginnig of da series.. as much as i observed daniel and tom.. ron.. he looked kinda cute wen he is scared... hehehe.. well... yeah gt those ticket fer free... cuz ma aunty worked i somewhere larh...

after da movie was suppose to go to far east.. ya see need to get new stuff... wallets... and urm.. clothes... but uncle wanna bring ma kuzzie to west coast park.. yeah.. so went there... was like a brand new place.. da mcs there is so HUGE!!and i mean REALLY HUGE!! yeah well ya see i was wearing a skirt..YES a skirt.. de i really wanna climb da web.. but very damn lazy to change mah.. so yeah didnt give a damn.. den was on da way up.. wen i realised i was giving free show to a guy below me..was damn embarassing!!!!!!!! lolx niwaiz... went up wid ma kuzzie.. yeah on da way up was kinda stuck since ma skirt was tight.. yeah..so were juz hanging ard ad da middle... den ma kuzzie looked up... and was staring ad dis 4 boys up there!! lolx.. nt tat bad.. but too show-off.. ma kuzzies type of guys.. well they are cute.. but still... hmm.. juz nt ma taste.. well nt at least one of them.. dyed hair...*drools*lolx.. hahahha kk... ni waiz.. yeah ma kuzzie wanna see them badly.. she pratically drag me oso... well didnt toked to them.. or else wont be sitting dwn infrnt of this com..yeahz...hmm... yeah... well todae.. i dun noe.. maybe i am changing.. letme tell ya wad i wore frm top to btm..

From top to bottom:
-did ma hair in some girlish way..
-lol.. this is weird.. wore eye liner.. looked liek a ghost..
-had a polo shrt on.. a tite one..
-had a skirt on.. knee length..too long.. i wanna a shorter one
-had a girlih sandal one...
-oh yes.. had a small bag wid me(inside...ma eye drop hp digi cam)

hmm.. nt tat bad ritey?? bt to me s o nt me.. sigh maybe i am influenbce by the ppl ard me*no offence* yeah.. wanna get a new stuf.. mom gave me 50 bucks.. to spend.. yeah.. so gonna shop liek hell on wednesday... k alh wanna end this entry here...

to all those hu saw me ad far east... suntec.. or west coast in skirt.. well dun wori it is nt ya imagination..i was in skirt.. a sandal.. so du wori k??!! heh toking rot..

well.. hm.. i juz wanna sae.. i am missing someone here.. sigh.. havent been toking to this one fer sometime.. well.. juz hope u noe hu u are.. i juz wanna say i miss u... and i juz wanna see u one of this days yeah.. so yeah love ya lotz.. miss ya.. meet u wen itis time fer us to meet..

yeah k tat is it..

PEACE OUTY!~

2004-06-05T20:48:00.000+08:00

hey peepz.. yeah i known i said tat i wont be blogging fer the xt few daes ritey?? yeah.. but then now ad home fer awhile onli... so decided to tag lorh.. yeah

yesdaea was ma lil kuzzie bdae.. hes onli like 1 year old.. yeah did alot of things.. went singing ad the top of ma lungs.. lolx.. yeap.. adn ATE ALOT OF FOOD!!! yeah.. ma mom was looking ad ma tummy todae and went.. LOOK AD TAT!!! i just kept queit.. as i know i had eaten alot... yeah.. ma uncle as usual bullied da adults.. by singing a duet each.. was kinda good i shld say..yeah.. and urm todae went out wid ma uncle!! yeah was kinda fun.. went shopping...urm.. bout a small bag.. and a skirt.. yeah i know i said i dun like them.. but this one is really sweet!! lolx..yeah.. but kinda long.. till ma knee there.. dun like it.. and ma auty.. ma fav one.. bought fer me a earing!! nice lorh.. tot of buying fer ma self one todae.. but ma uncle didnt wanna go town.. so tml den go lorh,..yeah must set money fer a new hp pouch..a new wallet..NOT NIKE ONE!! hehehehe kinda sick of them oleadi...yeap.. ma aunty and kuzzie said tat i am being kinda gurlish this days.. i dun noe larh.. mite be i just becoming to like girls stuff.. BUT i WILL HATE PINK!!!lolx.. i dun noe y but i just hate tat colour lorh.. yeah.. maybe i am just hanging ard da people tat liek skirt.. like earings..and like girls stuff.. but ad da same time.. love sports.. and hiphop.. yeah.. well no matter wad..hiphop still runs in ma blood.. no matter wad.. no matter wad...yeah.. so yeah.. and ma lil entry wid a lil shout dout...

to ma lil old dahlink addne.. heyz.. urm.. nvr reply ma msges huh?? so mean.. :( yeah ani wiaz.. take gud care of ya self orite?? LOVE YA LOTZ.. AND TAKE CARE*MUACKS*

to kak putri... hey lil kiddo!!! :D like dat name?? hehe.. ni waiz.. thanks fer being there fer me yeah.. :) LOVE YA LOTZ TAKE GUD CARE*MUACKS*

to sarah girlie!! hey!!! thanks fer wad u have done fer me and addne yeah.. thankiew so much.. :D:D:D:D: LOVE YA LOTZ!! take gud care yeah...

to eneida.. long time no see!!! so yeah!! miss ya ...

to kak syeila...hey thanks fer da advice u gave me fer me lil leg.... yeah guys i cnt play fer awhile larh..

to adela!! hey adik!!! hey.. thanks fer talking to me da other day yeah.. was realli bored....so yeah thanks oritey??

yeah guess tat ends ma lil entry lorh.. TO ALL MA CLOSEY FRENS...u know hu u are.. miss u guys oleadi...

2004-06-04T14:16:00.000+08:00

heyz just came bck...(:(:(: yeahpie...toking to ma dearest kakak..yeapie.. kinda bored juz came hme frm urnm...jurong point.. yeah.. bought a lil card fer ma lil old dahlink.. hmm.. fer wad?? i oso dun noe...:D opps supos to be a supirse bun den.. nvr mind larh.. yeahp.. sigh.. gt tuition lata and oso ma lil kuzzie bdae.. gonna be fun.. even though he is onli 1 year old.. ma uncles are so gonna bully us.. by making a fool of ourself.. yeah guess tat i ant be blogging fer a few daes.. yeah.. to ma preciaous lil dahlink.. yeah.. ddun get stalked by boys again kiez!! yeah msg me once ya free.. but make sure ya study oritey!!!LOVE YA LOTZ!!!! to kak putri bring ma pressie yeah!! dun ferget.. hehe LOVE YA LOTZ TO!! WILL BE MISSING YOU GUYS WEN I AM GONE!!addne do me a favour.. dun tell anione abt ma future yet k?? dun even mention it on ma blog k!!!

2004-06-03T13:59:00.001+08:00

hey peepz.. sorie didnt really update yesdae..had alot of things in mind.. and urm.. da note i left.. was suppose to be for someone.. and was kinda glad tat everything is bck to normal now*smile big2*..was waiting fer da dae this stupid stuff to end..ani waiz.. to tat gerl..

heyz...juz wanna sae i am sorie.. i was in fault da other dae and i jus hope ya forgive me yeah..and oso dun ever say tat i wld leave u even if i find someone better or wadever larh.. cause i kno0w in some other ways u are much better than her.. u have stayed by me fer urm.. uncountable number of times.. even if it is during good or bad times.. u've been there.. supporting me.. conforting me..and even if u wan this friend ship to end.. it wld take sometime fer me to forget ya.. after the time we spend??the things we shared??so juz glad tat we realised our own mistakes and didnt really break da friensdship... i juz take this situation as another obsticale in our friendship..tat would onli makes us closer and stronger in handleling this kinda stuff.. so yes.. msg me more if u have time.. and urm.. if nt i understand.. so yeah love ya lotz..and take gud care of ya self.. see ya wen schl reopen yeah...:D..love ya lotz...

2004-06-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

sorie gal...

abt yesdae... u noe hu u are..i am juz here asking for forgiveness...i dun noe wad to sae..abt us.. well wad u said yesdae..was kinda unpredictable.. after da time we spend?? after the things we shared?? u say it is best fer us to be in separate ways?? you didnt sae it but u meant it.. every single thing u said to me yesdae.. was... as i said unpredictable.. may be it is because of tat person.. maybe because of me.. i dun noe.. all i just wanna sae is tat even if u wanan end this relationship u are still a friend hu made a different in my life..a friend hu have hurt me but ad da same time made me a stronger person.. wadever u decision is i respect it ncause i noe i was in da wrong..

2004-06-01T10:48:00.000+08:00

*yawn* juz woke up... help ma mama do her werk last nite..damn tired now.. ni waiz...juz found out tat ma gd bro has a gf.. no wonder nvr reply msges..aiyarh..nvr mind larh.. if he fergot abt me.. den i ferget abt him larh..yeahz..

last nite had a talk wid ma sister..she's orite now.. yeah.. juz glad to hear tat.. i was worried to death once i read her blog..
i mena yeah.. even after wad we'v been thru.. she ma sister rite?? and i still care fer her and love her.. and i cnt deny it. so..juz to tell her.. anithing call me up.. or juz leave me a note k? yeah now i am problem-free!!yeah!! kk tat was lame but i have been having lots of problems.. be it wid frens.. or even school..so yeah now everything is settle.. and cnt get dwn to werk..

doin ma science research.. den history.. den need to go to and find books to read fer english..*head spinning* so many hw to be done in such a lil time.. gonna die..somemore need to do revisions.. well.. thanks to ma mom i kena grounded.. so tat means i cnt go out.. cnt use com widout her permission..in shrt means..study 24/7..i am gonna die.. well tml going out wid dem.. so at least tat is okiez..having a family gathering again..twice oreadi dis week..i guess by having those gathering it makes our family closer..yeah..X)..hahahha it will be fun..having lil kids running ard..nice..yeah..hey ya guys heard a song called stay the same by joey smthing? it damn freaking nice orh.. yeah kiez larh need to do ma math.. continue it.. and ma science..

stay the same

dont u ever wish u were someone else
u were meant to be the way u are exactly
dont u ever sae u dont like the way u are
wen u learn to love ur self
u better of by far
and i hope u always stay the same
cause there is nthing abt u i would change

i tink u cld be wadever u wanan to be
if u cld realise all the dreams u have inside
dun be afraid if hve smthing to sae
juz open up and let it show u the way

dont u ever wish u were someone else
u were meant to be the way u are exactly
dont u ever sae u dont like the way u are
wen u learn to love ur self
u better of by far
and i hope u always stay the same
cause there is nthing abt u i would change

believe in urself
reach dwn inside
the love u fnd will set u free
believe in urself
u cld come alive
have faith in wad u do
u wld make it thru

dont u ever wish u were someone else
u were meant to be the way u are exactly
dont u ever sae u dont like the way u are
wen u learn to love ur self
u better of by far
and i hope u always stay the same
cause there is nthing abt u i would change

tats the lyriccs to the song of stay the same..meaningful song manz.. yeah well it is to KAK PUTRI..KAK SYEILA..ADDNE..
YIN..ENEIDA...SARAH...JULIA...NAT TAN.. JULIA..HANNAH..AMELIA KOH...AND TO MA BELOVED..x)x)x)x)x)x)x)x)x)x)x)x)x)x)x)x)x)x)x)

to kak putri.. thanks alot fer all those nice msges.. KEEP IT COMING SIS!!yeah tat is done!!lurv u lots....guys...

2004-05-31T18:50:00.000+08:00

ORAL!!!!!
had freaking oral todae... easy larh but i worry fer nthing!! hahah.. ma oral onli strs ad 11.30 but i came to schl ad 6.30.. must be early mah*grins*.. so went mcs wid vanessa.. sweeney.. and nat tan... had breakfast.. i know cnt not eat early in da mawning.. still... eat.. so wen got oral.. man.. the stomach ache came.. i was like wad da heck lorh... of all time.. y muz it be now.. was kinda easy larh.. the conv part rocks man!! i dun noe larh wad i tok abt oso... but mrs loh.. seem to enjoying it!!*GRINS* kk... i very thick-skin i know.. ani waiz.. i cnt stand da pain.. went loo somany time lorh.. hm.. yeah.... den saw addne.. tokked fer awhile... den.. went hme.. kena nagging cause came hme late mah.. i mean i was in da loo k.. hate it..

yeah ni waiz... juz read ma sister's bloggie.. and i need to let her know.. hey sister.. i know we had a rough time last time.. and even though we have not been toking much... i just wanna let u know dun ever shut me out of ya life.. i still love you.. and yeah.. i just dont like it wen ppl do tat.. it is like i am nthing to you.. and if i am nthing to you..den y am ya sister rite?? so yeah.. sometime u just have to let it out.. and i know u are not tat kind of person.. hu does dat.. but still u cant keep it to urself.. knowing u are hurt.. makes others worried.. and hurt ad da sme time..i am just worried abt u.. yes i still care fer you even after wad i had said and felt towards you...so.. yeah DUN SHUT ME OUT OF YA LIFE K?

k.. urm to eneida.. i jus wanna sae.. hey girlie..tink twice k.. wadever ur decision is i respect it.. but if u need help.. yeah call me up k??

to addne dahlink.. u dun have to worrie.. da entry a few daes ago wasnt abt u.. well abit onli.. but yeah.. dun wori..i dun have ani hrd feelings..so yeah dun wori k?? love ya lotz.. take care!!!

KAKAK!!!!!!!!!hehehehehe... juz received ya msg!!! damn nice.. sunshine thru my window-tats wad you are, my shinning star! nice?? hehehehe!! u are the best!! love ya lotz.. muacks.. take care..see ya on thurs

yin dahlink.. dun wori abt me k??it was a nick.. and nthing more than tat.. k?? love ya lots.. and thanks fer 'taking care' of me

and to ma 1e5 girls!! hey daarlinkssss missing ya guys oreadi.. argh!! i miss da fun we had in class.. eating.. toking.. and juz slacking...LOVE YA LOTZ!!!!!!!!

tat is it peepz.. love ya lots.. peace out...

2004-05-29T15:47:00.000+08:00

harlow... nvr uypdate tat much yesdae... yeah was da last dae of schl.. suppose to go hme wid someone yesdae.. but dun noe y end up going hme alone.. boring siak.. ani wai.. abt ma report book?? dun wanna tok abt larh..now.. helping ma mama doing smthing.. she gt this sgh idol thingy.. and she is the organiser...yeah so while doing it can like update rite??*grin* i dun noe larh.. but i seriously tink i and people ard me are changing.. yeah well abt me i dun wanna brag abt it here.. but abt the people ard me.. sigh.. there is this speacial person i know.. we are drifting apart.. wen ever we meet she/he will end up avoiding me.. and yesdae we were suppose to meet up but end up i have to wait fer her/him...i was liek wad da heck lorh.. aiyarh.. hahhaha tat is da bad thing but the gd thing.. hahahhaha me and this person is getting closer.. yeah.. AT LAST we are toking.. toking.. and toking like non-stop..hahahhaha..yeah it is like the world does not revolves ard us.. hahha.. well yesdae was oso mrs ang las dae.. but i tink i ill be seeing her more larh. i dun noe MITE be onli...ani waiz.. someone said i am the best.. best of wad?? i oso dun noe.. (: mite be the best trouble-maker.. or best..argh.. i dun noe arh...

hey i wanna dye ma hair.. brown.. or even rainbow colour :D it would be really really nice orh...but then lata kena cye bck once school reopen.. man.. waste money onli.. yeah and i just buff ma nails!! look so shiny now..like brand new nails...:D:D:D:D:D:D i lurve it..heheheheh i am toking nonsense now..yeah..i am so hungr.. woke up damn early lorh todae.. ard 9 plus?? mom woke me up cuase granny was over ad my house... and we were suppose to go fer breakfast tat time but wad time did i go?? urm ard 11!! wasted ma beauty seep time onli...hey!! izzit flabby's bdae?? urm.. i dun neo niwaiz... HAPPIE BDAE FLAB!!!!k lah me wanna end this entry here.. wont be urm.. wrting nimore.. cause kena grounded.. yeah so.. urm.. as pernormall wanna end this entry wid some.. urm.. wadever u call it..

Eneida: hey dearie!!! all i wanna sae is tat... juz take gud care of yaself ya.. its all up to u but pweash.. dun make decisions wen ya angry!! pweash...love ya lotz!!

Syeila:hey kakak!! urm abt ya bloggie wanna a tag-board?? i can do fer ya.. and oso wad izzit abt the 23 dya thing on ya taggie.. well watever it is.. just remmeber even if tat person is not here.. she/he will always be in our mind k?? love ya lotz!!

Addne:hey addne!!urm.. i dun noe wad to say to you.. heheheheh OUH YESH!! REPLY MY MSGES PWEASH!!!I AM BORED!!LOVE YA LOTZ!!!!

kak purti:YOU ARE THE BEST TOO!!!*winks*LOVE YA LOTZ!!

BBALL GERLS:y da hell did i write tat??

Yin2:LOVE YA DAHLINK!!!

Sarah:hey dahlink!!take gud care ya?? love ya lotz!!

Vanessa:hehehehe....HEy dahliNK!! it is only urm...3 daes since u became ma dahlink..*winks*.nice??heheheh LOve ya LOTZ...NOT!! juz joking...

tat is it peepz..till again.. see ya!!

2004-05-28T19:19:00.000+08:00

hellowz people... hahahahha... ya guys noe wad?? ma lovest sister.. not mentioning hu.. said dat ma template is a lesbian thingy.. hahahhaha!!! laughing man..i mean.. da woman on da right looks damn old wid da wrinkles and liek urm.. crooked teeth!!! hahahahaha..laughing like mad now...ok larh... me gtg.. gotta bath!! buhbyez

2004-05-28T17:36:00.000+08:00

harlow!! got this new thingy.. nice?? it is dedicated to all ma dahlinks.. ma tebbys.. ma sista... and to ma MUMMY!!! hehehehe juz wanna tell ya guys.. i love ya guys too!!!

2004-05-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

harlo!!!! hehehehe me bck again!! juz finish tuition.. argh.. head ache man.. ani waiz...sorie abt the entry before.. was kinda lame.. lolx...i was running out of ideas of wad to write.. so wrote tat rubbish.. lorh... hahahahaha...now urm.. using com on and off... da com is going to be like retarded frm ebing on and off.. on and off.. yeah well ma dae wasnt tat bad.. onli had to go and like pluck weeds.. man tat was damn horrible lorh.. sigh.. yeah and MRS ANG LEAVING TML!! wad da heck man.. da class wrote letters fer tml.. and mrs kwok bimding it tml.. mrs ang if ya reading this juz pretend to be suprise tml k?? :D:D:D:Dk larh.. juz wanna sae.. people... LOVE YA LOTS!!!

2004-05-27T17:49:00.000+08:00

harlowz... long timy nvr go and blog.. so many things happening in malife now man... i dun noe wad to do!! argh!! ani wai... hmm... found ma self a new dahlink..hahaha...vanessa(izzit correct??) yeah of 1e4..hahaha..ma like urm.. 7th dahlink.. yeah2 i know tat i said i have like 12 ritey?? but then too many larh.. hahahaha...so reduced to like urm.. 7..yeah hahahaha.. first ish... urm addne.. den yin2.. den eneida..den sarah...den nat tan...den vanessa..den nat tay..yeah hhahaha... dun even noe y da freak am i putting it here... since i am ad dat.. letme rite ma sisters... den ma tebbys.. kk this is so lameo but i am bored... hahahaha.. yeah ma sisters are putri..amelia..shirin.. ilya..syeila...yeah..ma tebbys are urm camillie carmie adela.. and urm..faiznur..yeah kk this is getting lame.. ani wai i need to get smthing outda ma mindo.. well urm.. izzit wrong to hang ard wid someone hu is like urm... ur bestest friend enemy?? i mean like hey!! ma life.. not fer ya to countrol me rite?? so like get off lorh.. i am like bloddy pissed off.. and like juz now.. met her..i mena ma bestest fwen... and like she toked to me fer awhile.. den suddenly went off.. so me went to me ma fwen hu happen to ma bestest fwen dahlink.. and we were toking to each other lorh... and den saw ma bestest fwen.. so wen she saw me wid ma fwen.. she just like ignore me lorh!! i was like wad da -!! i cnt stand ppl liek this.. juz wanna judge someone by its cover..argh!! i dun wanan loose ma bestest fwen nor ma new fwen!! WAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!*snif snif* kk larh.. update lata ad nite k?? wanna end dis entry wid smthing i worte..

like a candle lying low
i am afraid of nowhere to go
cause without u i am lost
lost in da wrld wid alot of lows...

yeah okie... bb!!!

2004-05-25T19:55:00.000+08:00

heyz!! got ma self a new urm... template??? nice?? supppose to be fer boys.. but then i love it lorh!!!:D hehehehehe kk need to get ma self a new urm... tag board.. yeah ani waiz.. ma dae was nt tat bad larh... abt yesdae thingy.. dun worria abt me k?? i tink it is just a misunderstanding lorh.. kk... tats it fer now.. kuzzie screaming oreadi!!!! love ya lotz dahlinks...

2004-05-24T22:51:00.000+08:00

I HATE YOU!!! I SO HATE YOU!! MUST YOU DO THIS KIND OF THINGS TO ME??!! I HATE YOU!! I AM GONNA CRY!!! I CNT STAND THE WHOLE WORLD!!! GET LOST FRM MA SIGHT ADNI MEAN YOU!!NOW AND FOREVER!!!! ARGH!!! I CANT STAND U ANIMORE!!ARGH!!!!!!

2004-05-23T21:11:00.000+08:00

heyz... i seriously need to slap this gerl...or shld i just bash her up?? well if i am going to do it..i need iriyani a.k.a bimbo help..argh..i cnt stand it oreadi..i hate her.. i hate her... even her closest fren cnt stand wad makes u guys tink i can?? i so hate her!! ma anger has turn to dissapointment...and i wanna cry!!i just need someone shoulder now.. to cry on...hmm...well todai i am just going to talk abt her.. nt ma dae...i just need to let it all out...out here...i am sitting down da other dae..and asking ma self.. do i like her as for who she is or as for wat she is?? she is someone heartless..BUT she is someone hu has everyone's attention.. so wad do i like her for?? and fer u guys info.. it is none..she became one of ma ********* cause i like her for hu she is.. and dat was ad da beggining of the year...she is someone hu i can really talk to..someone hu i taught i can really rely on...but she made me change ma mind.. she
became someone hu i really hate now..someone hu just have to play wid ma feelings..i cant take it.. she hurt my feelings so badly..i just need to forget her..and i nearly succeded...until she came bck running to me asking fer forgiveness... i cnt accept..i seriously cnt..i would want to.. but to think back.. i cnt go through wad i have just gone through...i did so many things to mend maself bck to normal.. and i just cnt let HER ruin me again...nope... i just cnt.. i tot i had it off me last week..until one of ma dahlinks came up to me almst in tears...tat is wen the past came bck...and i cnt help it but be pissed of ad her oso...juz again.. it happens on fridae...to da people hu were there asking me all sort of questions.. sorie yeah... i am just pissed off dat dae...i didnt mean to give u da get lost attitude...but i was just in a confusion..i really...really..hate her now.. i dun mean to hate her.. but she made me to..and now...i just hate ma self fer writing this..i lost many tears because her.. and i am losing them now..there is like a malay sentence wic goes like.datang tanpa dijemput...pergi tanpadi smthing larh...wic means..one comes without invitation..and goes without saying gud bye...and tat really fits her...sigh i cant talk...think..or say abt her animore..i am losing my tears becaus of her..sigh..k wanna go off.. add some lata when i am cooled dwn..to da peole hu was there fer me on fridae...sorie cause of ma attitude on dat dae.. and to vanessa of 1e4.. heheh thanks gal.. u really made me laugh tat dae...love ya lotz people...

2004-05-23T12:20:00.000+08:00

juz woke up...*yawn* veri da tired siak... ani wai ..i gt ma lil kuzzie staying over nite yesdae... den she saw da pressie kak putri gave me.... den she like screamd "damn cute!!!" i was yeah kak putri gave me..and she was likeok... and she tinks i am a lil kid hu likes this cute lil stuff (ani wai it is a small pillow) yeah.. well i just wanna let out somestuff tat have been bothering me... and yes...addne.. this is wad have been bothering me..i wanna tell ya but the other time u were dan close to her.. so i dun wanna u to like change ya mind abt her... yeah well... she hurt me once..and now she hurt ma fren..shld i 4give her?? is hard fer me to accept her fer hu she is cause she change alot..and wad makes me sad tat she chnage it fer da wrst..da person hu i dun wish to hang ard wid or even wanna noe..i dun no wad to do arh.. ma brain going to like..ARGH!!kk enugh abt her... to ma dearie...take gud care of urself k?? just dun wanna see ya hurt..love ya lotsz... to ma dearest dahlink... hmm.. have fun yesdae nite wid ya noe hu?? well now tat u are ok wid him... take gud care of urself and him k?? smile always..me dun wanna see ya hurt like yesdae... tacke ud care.. and love ya lotz... tats its people...take gud care people.... and love ya lotz...

2004-05-23T00:46:00.000+08:00

harloz.. its like 0047 now.. damn tired larh.. went out wid ma mama one whole day.. well not a whole dae but yeah since i reached hme.. sigh.. ma freaking leg is nt healing...and guess wad??i am going jogging wid ma daddi tml.. i mean lata in da mawning!!hehehe... i know somepeople wold be liek wad da heck??!! but hey a girl like me cnt just sit ard and wait fer this leg to like heal rite??kk maybe i wont like jog.. just do some light xcersice k?? watever larh.. ani wai.. juz now went to ma kuzzie hse.. nvr meet her fer a month or so..and guess wad??man.. she become.. punk rocker..instead of a breaker...argh!!no fwen oreadi.. all da rest are either.. japz.. maen baju.. punk..or like others BUT nvr HIPHOP!!! wad da heck lorh... ani wai yeah.. she was wearing her jeans like so dman lose but tight...*tsk tsk* i dun noe wad is the world coming to.. and oso... yeah i watched soem magic/illusion show juz now.. dman nice lorh.. this guy walk ard wid a fire o his sweater... and he still cna cool about it..he oso wanaged to put a lit ciga into his nose...like eeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwww... but cool arh... wanted to watch a midnight show wid ma parents... but ma granny came...sppoil it lorh.. bt nvr mind2 yeah... dman bored.. ma ankle is like pain...hit so many things lorh todai.. kk... to ma dahlink.. u dun haf to thank me.. it is juz smthimg tat is minor and i cn help it... so Y NOT rite?? hmm.. kk ... love ya lotz... take gd care people...

2004-05-22T17:49:00.000+08:00

and when it is like God has turned away from you
believe again and find da light
da light which shines from you
the light wic is urs and urs alone
-esther-
i smile to keep others strong
but who would smile for me
when you see the smile
would you think tat da smile is real
or dont u even care
-atiqah-
i know one day
i will lose you to her
but for now
i still able to smile
cause i know
you are still wid me
-atiqah-
my smile are my tears
-atiqah-
before this
every tears that droppd
u will wipe it away
but now tat you are gone
the tears just keep dropping
even though it knows tat
there is no one to kiss it away
-atiqah-

petaton

2004-05-22T12:31:00.000+08:00

hey people... i wanna make this entry short and sweet.. yeah cause i am in no mood...well firstly... school had pethaton(however u spell it larh) yeah.. had alot of cute lil and BIG dogs..cat..turtle..and lots moe larh.. yeah den me saw addne eating ad da canteen... she was eating wid her fwen.. so didnt wanna be an xtra dwn there... so walked away.. until she like shoted 'atiqah!!'.. yeah den we like hmm... talk and talk... i pity her larh.. having probs... but it would be cruel fer me to write wads her problem here.. so yeah.. juz put it as a personal problem..yeah... she wasnt her self.. dere is no smile on her face.. no laughter in her.. and no happiness..den while in the parade ground saw ma bimbo baby kitten!!! damn freaking cute lorh... kak putri.. was making up a song fer da cat..she damn cute lorh...i mean kak putri.. she look and sounds more like ma youger sister.. But she is way mature den me.. she knows how to manage her promblems waaaaaaaayyyyy better then me lorh..hehe ani way yeah.. den we went bck hme... me and addne... we took the bus frm clementi.. to take a long bus rided hme.. u noe to talk to her abt sme stuff..yeah.. i just pity her.. so as usual i will end ma entry wid a thankiew and a sowie..
ADDNE:hey dahlink..seeing u this way really makes me sad..and i just hope u will solve ur problem soon..i will just a a phone call away if u need someone to talk to...love you lotz..muacks!!
ENEIDA:hey dearie dahlink... just 4get about her okie?? she is a damn asshole larh... always going ard hurting people feelings.. yeah...cheer up k??u always cn talk to or addne k?? love you lotz!!
kak putri:KAKAK!!heheh seeing u todai makes me think of having a younger sister like you!!hehehe dun mean to make u feel small.. but still!!hehehe.. love u lotz..
Sarah:heyz...dun noe y am i doing this but juz wanna sae love you lotz..
patricia:hey son!!helloz.. urm..juz wanna sae hpe u and tat girl are alrite k??pweash dun fite..:(..
bbal team players:you guys did a gd job yesdae..(:(:(: train hard k??
guess this wld be da end for now!!yeah.. wad am i doing.. toking to mrs ang.. heheheh teaching her hw to do blogpsot and stuff.. yeah..k lastly.. i wanna sae love you lotz.. to ma dahlinks...kak putri..kak amelia..kak shirin.. k wanna go off!! c ya people!!

2004-05-21T21:46:00.000+08:00

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
And there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings take
you down,
It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if you let me walk with you
by your side,

And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone, cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone, cause I'll be there.

All of the times when everything is wrong
And you're feeling like
There's no use going on
You can't give it up
I hope you work it out and carry on
Side by side,
With you till the end
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand
no matter what is said or done
our love will always continue on

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
you won't be alone cause I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
I'll be there
I'll be the one you rely on
when the whole world's gone
you won't be alone
cause I'll be there!

And when the whole world is gone
You'll always have my shoulder to cry on....

freak!! i love dat song man... hehehe.. aniwai...todai want tat bad lorh.. but da thing is.. i am damn pissed of ad a few pple including ma self... i dun noe y.. but i kinda blew up ad da mst impt ppl in ma life!!WAAAA!! i dun noe y.. but todai.. was da day wen i wld actually watch ma dearie eneida play a game wwid Jurong sec..spend time wid addne and sarah BUT wad happen?? well.. 1st thing 1st.. this gerl... nt metioning her name.. came up to me.. and said she was damn hurt cause another girl.. hurt her.. and wic happen tat girl hu hurt her had hurt me oso.. so i was pissed of ad her lorh.. den i was like 'i am piss off..i am piss off..' den.. yeah addne came up to me and wanted to go to bbal court.. so yeah i went.. and sat beside sarah... i was actually toking to ma own self lorh... den okie... i lie down.. and pratically sun tan ma self...den addne asked wads wrong wid me ... so i juz liked say nthing lorh.. *sigh* i dun wanna tok or sld i say wroite abt it lorh... time fer u guys to figure out wad happen... juz like wad addne wld say.. fer me to know fer u to find out!! ;)yeah den now.. hmm toking ma beloved kak putri...syeila.. and waiting fer addne to cme online.. if by 12 she is nt online den dat is it i am off!!yeha and oso todai.. i sprained ma ankle..AGAIN!! sigh.. had to go ard school in a wheel chair lorh... but i wanna walk.. but den i gt 4 mummies who went saying no!! u shld use da wheel chair.. wad do u tink it is invented for in the 1st place?? and those 4 pepole are mrs ang..nat tay..nat tan..addne... and as usual i was like watever... i mean wad da heck?? i cnt go ard running fer da nxt few daes... T_T i hate it man...k lah i wanna end here fer NOW.. add lata ad nite k? (:

iriyani(a.k.a bimbo) sorie but i luv this phrase..'hiphop is just nt music.. its ma life..'

niteZzZzZz

2004-05-20T22:24:00.000+08:00

I WANNA ALL CAPS.. ANI WAI YEAH.. TOKING TO ONE GAL... FRM HKSS.. YEHA SHE WANNA NOE HOW TO DO THIS BLOGGIE STUFF... SO YEAH TAUGH HER LORH.. DID ONE GOOD DEED TODAI!!!YEAH!!*CLAP*HEHEHE... ANI WAI NO ONE TO TOK TO ACCEPT FER THIS LIL CHUBBY GERL FRM HKSS... YEAH HMM... ON DA STAURDAE SUPPOSE TO GO OUT WID DAHLINK ADDNE... BUT GRANNY SAID I HAVE BEEN GOING OUT TOO MUCH!! ARGH!! WAD DA -!YEAH.. SORIE YEAH ADDNE... I WILL MAKE UP TO U ONE DAE... I HOPE.. SO TML GT URM.. FRIENDLY MATCH AGAINST JURONG RITE?? YA... JUST DO UR BEST GUYS(:..YEAPY..I WILL BE THERE CHERERING U GUYS ON.. K WANNA MAKE SPECIAL THANKIEW TO KAK PUTRI!!SHE DID THE TAGGIE K.. NICE RITE?? KK TAT WAS LAME BUT STILL THANKIEW KAK PUTRI!! YEAH...WAIT I WANNA DO SOME THANKIEW AND SORRIE FER A EW PEOPLE..
syeila:HEY SISTA...BEEN SOMETIME SINCE WE GET DOWN AND TALK RTE?? WELL I JUST WANNA SAE...EVEN THOUGH YOU MITE BE BZ WID YA LIFE... YA STILL MA SISTA NO MATTER WAD...LET JUST 4GIVE AND 4GET ABT DA PAST..LUV YA SISTER!
addne:HEY DAHLINK!!JUST WANNA SAE THANKIEW... FER ALL THE STUFF U HAVE DONE...FER TOLERATING WID MA ATTITUDE(:...GIVING ME ENCOURAGMENT..JUST WANNA SAE...THANKS FER EVERYTHING..EVERYONE WLD WANT TO HE A FREN LIKE U!!LOVE YA DAHLINK
kak putri:HEY KAK!!WELL..U ARE DA BEST OF DA BEST KAKAK I HAVE!!SO YEAH THANKS FER TELLING ME TAT U LOVE ME ALOT OF TIMES... WELL... I WANNA SAE SORIE ABT WAD HAD HAPPEN..AND I LOVE YOU...
yin!!:YIN DAHLINK!! I SO HATE YOU!!HAHAHAHA NO LARH..THANKS FER ALL TEH SUPPORT YOU GAVE ME...:)
eneida:HEY DAHLINK I WANA SAE THANKIEW FER THE PHONE CALLS U MADE EVRYNITE... THANKS FER HELPING ME K?? LOVE YA!!
nurul jannah:HEY GAL SORIE FER WAD HAD HAPPEN AND I DUN WANNA OUR 6 YEARS RELATIONSHIP GOING DWN DA DRAIN..
ria(kuzzie)HEY BIMBO!!!I JUST LOVE YOU!!OUR FIGHTS RAE BCAUSE WE LOVE EACH OTEHR RITE???HEHEH..THANKIEW.. ADN U WILL GET MY SON ONE DAE K??
KK... WANNA GO OFF FER DA NITE..SEE YA GUYS...
ATIQAH
WILL BE NEEDING YOU GUYS FOREVER

MA BOOBS!!!

2004-05-20T17:26:00.000+08:00

welloz... juz reached hme...went hme wid addne... urm.. to da ppl in bus 66... sorie fer all the noise we made...da 'innocent' stuff we did...yeah i know we were like urm poking each other urm... dun need to say... yeah SORIE!!! to the acs boi behind us hu was sleeping... sorie to disturb ya sleeping time..yeah and to addne I AM SO NOT SORIE!!!! i swear i feel tat ma right one is flatter!!!*argh*ani wai i will get u tml... so wad happened todai?? nthing much...cikgu nora made me tok to nurul jannah... about our problem..man... tesion..tension.. but at least me and n.j are okie!!!-YEAH!! haha... yeah and to update u guys... me and her are toking...-if u all dun noe.. never mind...fer all those hu noes yeha mea nd her are toking...but not abt us lorh.. abt u noe hu... class was okie... paid attention all dae man... den after dat had to stay bck fer da stupid project.. muz write script...den met addne... urm kinda boring dae todai.. yeah.. well now urm..toking to ma BELOOOOOOVVVVVVVVEEEEEEDDDDDDDD sista putri...hehe.. she helping me to do smthing(:..nthing much.. and oso people.. I AM SO SICK DIS DAYS... i fergot!! druing recess me and yin were like urm kicking each other butt..den ad da parade grnd.. wen we were supose to be lining up... we were still kincking.. den she chased after... so ran.. but BACKWARDS AND TOO FAST!!!!!! so fell down on ma bck and cause of ma speed i like skided on ma bck..wow.. i was like blur lorh... somemore gt alot of pple dwn there!!MALU!!hehehe... lata larh people... add somemore ad nitez...k??

LUV YOU GUYS!!!
MIZZ YA OREADI!!

BOOO!!!

2004-05-19T22:54:00.000+08:00

wellowz... well... i know i just updated ard two horus ago?? well heck.. ani wia yeah..kind abored now... gt nthing to do...OH YES!!! smthing funny happened just now.. me walking into west mall wid ma mama...den suddely i heard someone went"BOOO!!' i was like hu da hell is this grl.. cuase i could not really see... had long hair... wearing something really short...den she went laughing like hell.. and dat laughing cn only be addne's.. man she gve me a hell of time shocked man... hahaha... saw her.. let down her hair..wid a really really short jeans like shorts or watever it is larh.. den i went like addne... and ma mama.. turned bck and said addne she's so sweet.. hehehehe.. den i saw one guy.. urm.. addne's boi...hmm... well no comment abt hi larh... onli cn say he is innocent... gt dat decent look... (: yeah...k wanna go off fer da nitez

nitez...

confused

2004-05-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

hello... no mood to write ani waiz... urm.. yeah juz came hme... hahaha...realli funny man... wen da bbalers having their trng... me and rica fnd this chameleon near da bbal court... den i tried taking it.. bt christina took it first...den prema started screaming like nobodie buisnees man... yeah den syeila... took it and i tink showed it to addne dahlink... hahaha and as usual addne went running... syeila treathen to put it in addne's bag... and guess wad??everything was exposed... addne's pad... addne's urm... other stuff... hahaha.. so yeah den went hme wid addne... people in da bus muz have tink tat we are crazee... if we were nt eating..we wld be abusing each other... hahahah... but den.. within those happiness...there is always sadness... addne dahlink sorie if i amde ya angri or worried...i was juz tinking abt some stuff dat has been bothering me fer da past few daes...i dun noe if i shld tell u now but i promise i will tell u one dae ... to ma other dahlinks like sarah and eneida... thanks fer helping me all this while... u guys been da best... but not da best of da best..:)..heheh sorie...and to ma dearest sister... putri...LOVE YA KAK!!!hahahaha... dun noe hw to say those to u but i tink it best via here...hehe...thanks so much fer helping me... making me realise ma mistakes... and lastly sorie abt wad had happened recently...i dun noe hw t say but me love ya too much to hurt ya... sorie yeah...i PROMISE TO SPEND TIME WID YA!!!!

and lasly... nitez... people... ma timing here is so damn WRONG!!!! argh!!kk!! lata people... LOVE YA LOTZ!!!

i love you
too much to hate you
but i cnt accept the apology now
cause the scar in ma heart
u hurt was deep
and it wont give in now

mA idI0tiC Life

2004-05-16T21:48:00.000+08:00

sigh... i just dun noe where to start abot da wrst topic i cn tok abt...and dat is ma life..well.. firstly..i cnt help it but to see da mst impt ppl in ma life drifting away frm me...i mean yah...u cnt do anithing but just see tat person going away...drfting away wid da wind...just like one min here u are happily toking to her and da nxt shes gone...sigh..well..i cnt say tat ma school werk has been keeping ma mind bz enough to 4get abt it though...aniw ai tat is ONE... i still like gt 231567984 in ma mind tat i cnt 4get?? phark wid all this idiots stuff.. well ani wai..wad wld u guys do if someone u trust da mst suddnely just ignores u and 4get abt...da nxt moment wen u alreadi 4get abt da pain...she comes bck to u and ask fer forgiveness...ARGH!! i dun noe arh... ani wai here is wad i made up fer tat twwo precious person..here goes...

i dun noe wen i will lose u
and i dun want to know either
but for now
all i cn do is spend every precious time wid u
and say this words to you
'i love u'

nitez people...

nEw!!

2004-05-16T16:14:00.000+08:00

k gt ma self a new blog...i actually have to smugle it to do this kinda thing man... k lata people...