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heyz... i seriously need to slap this gerl...or shld i just bash her up?? well if i am going to do it..i need iriyani a.k.a bimbo help..argh..i cnt stand it oreadi..i hate her.. i hate her... even her closest fren cnt stand wad makes u guys tink i can?? i so hate her!! ma anger has turn to dissapointment...and i wanna cry!!i just need someone shoulder now.. to cry on...hmm...well todai i am just going to talk abt her.. nt ma dae...i just need to let it all out...out here...i am sitting down da other dae..and asking ma self.. do i like her as for who she is or as for wat she is?? she is someone heartless..BUT she is someone hu has everyone's attention.. so wad do i like her for?? and fer u guys info.. it is none..she became one of ma ********* cause i like her for hu she is.. and dat was ad da beggining of the year...she is someone hu i can really talk to..someone hu i taught i can really rely on...but she made me change ma mind.. she
became someone hu i really hate now..someone hu just have to play wid ma feelings..i cant take it.. she hurt my feelings so badly..i just need to forget her..and i nearly succeded...until she came bck running to me asking fer forgiveness... i cnt accept..i seriously cnt..i would want to.. but to think back.. i cnt go through wad i have just gone through...i did so many things to mend maself bck to normal.. and i just cnt let HER ruin me again...nope... i just cnt.. i tot i had it off me last week..until one of ma dahlinks came up to me almst in tears...tat is wen the past came bck...and i cnt help it but be pissed of ad her oso...juz again.. it happens on fridae...to da people hu were there asking me all sort of questions.. sorie yeah... i am just pissed off dat dae...i didnt mean to give u da get lost attitude...but i was just in a confusion..i really...really..hate her now.. i dun mean to hate her.. but she made me to..and now...i just hate ma self fer writing this..i lost many tears because her.. and i am losing them now..there is like a malay sentence wic goes like.datang tanpa dijemput...pergi tanpadi smthing larh...wic means..one comes without invitation..and goes without saying gud bye...and tat really fits her...sigh i cant talk...think..or say abt her animore..i am losing my tears becaus of her..sigh..k wanna go off.. add some lata when i am cooled dwn..to da peole hu was there fer me on fridae...sorie cause of ma attitude on dat dae.. and to vanessa of 1e4.. heheh thanks gal.. u really made me laugh tat dae...love ya lotz people...
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