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just came frm town
was fun cause this time went wid sarah
sarah wore a orange sports bra
and a jersey wic is see tru!
to make it worse it rain?
and yeah we could see everything
i see lets make a list of wad i bought:
16 fuck bands-$4
sarah's bear-$12
vin's cd(: the abc guyy-$20
quicksilver pencil box-$20
paid half of uncle bda pressie-$10
there was this cute sales guy frm flash and splash
nice tan bald and has black earings
well i was practically staring ad him
and this bitch said to him
tat i was staring
i mean FUCK OFF!
this are ma eyes!
dun bother maiing comments
he seriously had cute looks
i mean if she said i came all the way
there just to take a look ad him?
so fucking wrong
i needa blarady pencil box
ferged it
i very lazy to write nithing liaow
; ] .
i am going to be FAT!!
READ DAT F-A-T!
i just ate tow bowles of fattening food
i needa go gym
i needa go fer ma daily run
who wants to go wid me?
shidshid
i wanted to wear da black t
but found out it can see ma HUGE TUMMY!!
aint going to swear since dat can see it ad ani time):
but!
#$&^^&^$##$%%
there its all written!
orite todae was BORING!
msged baby but look like he didnt want to
BLEHS!
went hhorny wid PHEBE
i was a one night stander((:
and i was describing ma life to her
shoo nice
add some spices to ma dae((:
PHEBE!
i have not seen it before!!
its not ugly nor is it beautiful!
i cant decide cause i haven seen it before!!
and i am still a wnderful ONE NIGHT STANDER((:
accept it
i get more money fer dat((:
OIS!
fer ya
i msged but u half hearted reply
i know it
cause it wasnt u todae
sad to sae):
msg me orite tml
i needa get sumthing off ma chest((:
specialize in heartbreaks` you are here` but i dont feel the love ineedabreak((:
; ] .
heyys
me bckk((:
am looking ad sum pics dat was taken
during rayerrr
like hell
half da time we were goofing ard
none nice piccs
shid people camme
have to cuut it short fer todae):
but am leaving the compp on((:
yeaps
leaving the lyrics on fer fun((:
Intro (Lah)
Everytime I close my eyes
Shorty I see you
Right there with me
Walk with me
Verse 1 (Joe Flizzow)
Girl I seen you do your thang
Make a playa' wanna holla'
Seen cats trying to run game
Impress you with their dollars
You ain't like that
That's what I love about you
No need no man to give you ends
And try support ya'
You rock manolo things
Your blings match your rims
You only know me as that rapper
Workout at your gym
I seen you work that punching bag
Releasing ya' anger
Baby something's stressing you
That's why you look so gangsta'
That ish attracting me
Cos' boo you ain't fake
Let me step to you
Holla' boo make it a date
Then we can conversate
Get to know what you hate
And what you want
Ain't trying to front
I ain't no second rate
I'm the real deal
Ain't no run of the mill
And I'm digging you crazy
Your style is real ill
So take a walk with me
Open up and talk to me
Ain't no pressure
Just kick it
That's how it's gonna be
No fancy restaurants
We both sick of that
Let's take a stroll
If you cold wrap my hoodie
Round your back
Walk to your doorstep
Give me that smile baby
Huh...
Hot damn you the ish...
Chorus (Lah)
Everytime I close my eyes
I fantasize myself with you (Shorty I see you)
Shorty lookin' tight
I bet you'll look so right with me
There's so much to talk about
So yeah let's talk about it
While we walk around
Now baby come, right
Hold me tight
And take a walk with me...
Verse 2 (Noreen)
First off
I heard your relish for chicks
I'm not your average witch
And that's a fact
That I'll establish quick
So kill the devilish tricks
I'm not at all a fabulous pick
Stay in the palace or rich
Or slammin' like the chicks
In your clips
And quit the modesty
Of course
I know your name man
Heard 'bout your fame clan
And all about your game plans
I'm not your typical prey
A different dame brand
Yo star struck
And fall for celebs?
Yo' that's a lame trend
We come from two different worlds
Like Uncle L sang
Go tell fam
That why I play hard
It’s just a gal thang
I know my words sting
So tell the whole gang
Well oh dang
Still pushin' ma's whips?
You lil' poor thang
You like the rims on my ride?
You need a hike?
Psyque, a lil' walk
Will make you feel aight, right?
Burn some calories
Out by every mile
Yo peace
I'm outtie five thou
With a coke and a smile... Holla'
Chorus (Lah)
Everytime I close my eyes
I fantasize myself with you (Shorty I see you)
Shorty lookin' tight
I bet you'll look so right with me
There's so much to talk about
So yeah let's talk about it
While we walk around
Now baby come, right
Hold me tight
And take a walk with me...
Verse 3 (Malique)
Ay shorty listen
I bet you hear this ish
All the time
But here's a lil' something
Worth playin' on auto rewind
I hope you don't mind
To kill a lil' time
To hear clearly
Since you a harder target
Let me take my shots fairly
Rarely, I gets to meet a gurlie
Hard to be tamed
Yea I done broke alotta hearts
And I ain't mentionin' names
A playa'
Too many games played
Has gotten me a tired man
And your rejection means
Delayin' my retirement
So shorty grab my hand
And walk with me
I'll crack a joke
And make you chuckle
Promenade up in the park with me
It's just a lil' me and you
Chill session
To change your foul perceptions
And your misconceptions
I'll sit you down
And make you look in my eye
So when I talk on future plannings,
You can tell it whether I'm lyin' or nah
Alotta guys are steady lyin'
Just to get through your thighs
But I just wanna make you smile
Cause I'm allergic to cries
You feel me?
I swear to God I'll treat you proper
I'll love you proper
Apologies for lesser wealth to offer
I heard your man
He drive a Benz
You like to ride that?
Well off that
I ain't got that
Now shorty
Lets just take a walk right back...
What...
Verse 4 (Quotazn)
Ok, yeah
My man he got a nice car
But that's not my deal
Plus we didn't get very far
He left me in a hurry
Like he had the damn right
To leave me feeling this way
Wasted every night
But I don't need your shoulder
Or your tissue
I'm the kind of girl
Who can handle her own issues
Listen
I don't place affections thoughtlessly
So I’m kinda weary
When you say walk with me
So what the dilly?
Now really what's the hype?
Stop explainin' yourself playboy
I know your type
You wanna step into my life
And do me right
You play with girls all day
Call me every night
You wanna walk with me
You wanna talk with me
But when I need a boy
Boy where you gon' be?
Would you be my side?
Maybe in your ride?
Maybe even on the stage
Waving side to side?
Your words fall on deaf ears
I don't need your sweetness
I'm oblivious
'Cause I know women
Are your weakness
Maybe we should walk
But in opposite directions
I hope my irritance
Shows in my voice inflection
Chorus (Lah)
Everytime I close my eyes
I fantasize myself with you (Shorty I see you)
Shorty lookin' tight
I bet you'll look so right with me
There's so much to talk about
So yeah let's talk about it
While we walk around
Now baby come, right
Hold me tight
And take a walk with me...
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aam toking to baby now
had the comp ad last!
dad was pratically having it da whole morning
and now ma turn!
muahaha!!
yesdae was funny!
i told ma kuzzie about him
nt ashik but HIM
he was pratically staring ad me~
aand asked fer forgiveness again!!
wad da hell
got other teenagers ard
whyy must be me!!
so irritating orhhs
had a great time laughing ad him though!
aiyarhs
if U like me
just say
dun needa stare
till ur eyes wanna drop canss?
TSK
ani wai
had to wash plate and all tat
mma relative yazid look cute!
but wen smile look like gay lorh
he is a nice guyy thoughh
and granny was pratically tell his family
how different we were frm him
he knows how to do stuff
and i was like
"he is ready to become a hubby wad"
but wasnt loud enough to lead him hear dat !
we were expecting more than
wad came yesdae
but it was okae
i tink collected ard 50?
so total ard 250 there larhss
can can
yesdae nite was msg till 2 am in da morning
sure say goodbye to hp soon
spend ard 200 msges yesdae oni
ok larhs
getting bck to the conv
see ya
tc care
peace!
; ] .
heyys
backks
waiting fer people coming over
listening to a song by trivilation
soo nice
rap plus agu rayerr
yesdae collected ard 200 i tink
haiz
am so sickk
cousin is hyper!
i am sick
evelibodi is tiredd
wad more can there be??
whole dae sms
like nobodi buissness
akhaz
can say goodbye oleadi!
NAH DADDDY!
CAN HAVE MY HP OLEADI!!
sulks
yesdae tried saying in malay
wen askng fer forgiveneess
but i dun even noe wad i am sayying
so shitty and maluatiingg
den ma grandad(aunty dad)
said
aiyarhs say in english canss
so i said
"selamat hari rayer"
"maaf zahir dan batin"
"i seek your forgiveness for ani wrong doings"
"from head to toe"
chim arhss?
aiyorhss am sooo boreddd
kaezz
am going back to the poem half way writiing((:
torture isnt enoough
nice ritee?
; ] .
just reach home
am so tireed
shid i had alot to blogg
but have to waid fer tml:
aniwais
todae wasnt dat abd larhss
den tml got alot of people comingg
SULKS
wad da hell arhs
veri tired
am going to bedd((:
tml have ta call ad 11?
wadss
shidd
have oni ard 9 hours to slp!
NOT ENOUGH!!
sulks :/
; ] .
heyys
justdoneup
mahairandput
downthephone
widbaby
yesdae
waid
this morning
came home at 5 am
went to geylang
o enjoy the last day of it((:
was packed sia
and then akhaz
cuci materr lorhss
got one cute dude
but selling baju*bleahs
disgusting lorhss
akhazz
toldmom aboubaby
wad da hell i was tinking ritee?
cause i dun want a secret
r/s or friendship wid boiss
yeapss
she can accept him
souund innocent i tinkk
bleahs!
akhaz
now we can tok freely on the phone
bleahss
lamess larhs
ma aunt just wentt
she going her in-laws housee
amm soo booored
shid larhs
people call then put down da phone
aiyarhs must be asking fer forgiveness den go outt
aiyarhs nvrmindd
ashik a.k.a blehs! unte
akhaz
remember those days wen
we called widout MY mom knowing
akhaz
now canss liaows
aniwai have a meaningful time oritee
and yeash will call once i get home((:
buhbyez
love ya
take care
; ] .
[draft two]
am so tireed and soo deadd
spring clean da house fer dun know how many hourss
ma baby is soo lucky out theree
dun knoww where oso : /
hows?
am soo boored
i give up on it
not supose to on the compp
but on it ferst thing in morning
and aunt didnt say nithing
so just dun boother lahrss
now am looking ad some skinss
i wanna change
and i oso dun want to changge
poot said it was nicee
so i am justt looking ad it
probably changing it afta rayerr((:
so yeahss
blehss is invading ma bloog
hu is blehhs
i dun knoww
bleahss
waidds
i dun know wad to get fer ma blogg
have been having dark oness ard
like the gerl wid dat creature in a dungeon
den it was the gerl screaming
den now this is the onee
GIMME A SUGGESTION!
argh
blog is the online version of urself
so i have to be maself
i cant do nithing else
than rather be maself aint it rite?
so i keep being dark
until i see the light in ma life
wic i know i am seeing it((:
In Death I See Life
In Life I See Death
The Sweet Relief
That I Long The Hush Of Whispering wings
Have come to Take Me
Away, away
i found it in da skinss
its just showss da other side of onee
shid wad am i toking??
i oso dun knoww
shid
shid
alrite
i saw eminem skin
but then ritee
veli oldd
oritee
and i want the tattto dat eminem has
a pic of halley((:
the new breed of eminem((:
ok got nothing to blogg about
and oso got nothing too doo
shhai
bored
ok am going to blogg about how irritating it is to fast
sarah's idea
akhaz
ok
let see yesdae dinner was take away food
and it suck
seriously
manz
i ended up not eating nithing
and this morning didnt wake up fer sahur
like WTF
am feeling so giddy
wanna take panadol
but am fasting
ang just like i said
i am werking ma butt off
i saw alot of skinss
all were dark
nice siaa
iloveyou
iloveme
ilovehim((:
whoarhs??
dunknowlehs
kkiamboored
sarahknowswhyy
akhaz
amsoo boreddd
hmpf
aint home yett
cant crap on the phonne
why cant ya be earlly?
remember supose to crap on the phone ada 12?
but have ta go out
WTF
am pissed
woke up just fer yaa
aiyorrhs
aite2
no usee gedding angryy
ok
i know i am not going to blogg fer da nxt few dayss
until then i mish ya guys out there oleadi
TO YA'LL OUT THERE:
duit ngan luper nk sharee tau((:
selamat hari rayerr
maaf zahir dan batinn
hope all those things dat i have done to you guys
dat ma ya down or cry ad timess
be forgivenn
cause i know i have((:
MA BABY((:
still on on the 23?
i am gonna disturb ya oritee((:
we gonna shop our last day outt togather like hell
i will take care of maself dun wori
msg me oritee((:
; ] .
rayerr tml liaow~~
weee
akhaz but money all go mummy((:
veli kind hor?
aiyarh wadever larhss
baby is outt wid parentss i tinkkk
waliaou
called then say needa go out
hmpf~
must have forgotten manzz
aiyahr nvr mindd
am gonna werk my arse off todai
i am stuck noww
baby knows about it
but said up to mee
wad to doo
helpp
helpp
helpp
gotta cook i tink
so guys dun be suprised to see ma house in frnt page((:
fer wad?
as the house wic got burnt before rayerr((:
crappie
bbay if u readingg this
am gonna call u wen me not bz wic is ad nitee oritee
and yeashs
CAMAT ARI RAYERR SUMERR!!
luv ya guyss lotss((:
; ] .
MORNING!
well woke up to the voice of taufik
akhaz actually was the radio
he was talking and talking
then suddenly daphne said sumthing sweet
and taufik went"COme to pupu" or sumthing like dat
funni sia
SWEETPIE!!
like WTF
u still like bastard plaiboi?
fuck sia
dun let urself fall in love wid a fucker like dat
u deserve sumone beta canss??
he is just like ermss i dun know larhss
but ritee he deserve those roxy sluts larhss
this fucker i would not name is really one damn fucker
plaiboi besar!
poor thang
yewsdae
had a great laugh wid sarah
as usual she was teasing me wid baby!
wad da fuck orite
she had this realli cute voicee
akhaz
got off the phone wid her oni ad ard 12.30
now toking to bitch
wad da hell
she asked me fer him photo
like who said was close to him??
wad fuck larhh
aniwai baby calls!
he meesed up!!
walau
afternoon
pratically slack on the phone
had an hour talkwid baby((:
was soo fun
got to know crazee things bout baby
yeapss
ferged
i went* again
if u guys knoww me well
then u guyss know wad me trying to seyy
we were arguing about the taste of it!
akhaz
nvr mindd
ad nitee
dahne's gonee
fer gud or bad?
up to you to decide
but then taufik stays!
wad da hell
he is soo cute
and duh has a nicee voicee
and then duty calls
had to wash all those derrty plates where??
in the loo!
wad da hell ritee
cousin and me spent about an houor on itt
IN THE LOO!
akhaz
then had to clear room
cut some food
bla bla bla
alritee
dun knoww if me going to blogg tml
cause ad nitee got kenduri
ani wai
to all ma malay people reading this!
CAMAT HARI RAYERRR~!!
am going to bedd soon i suposee
alritees
me singin off((:
niytezzz
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3rd draft!
heyys
i change ma layout liaow
nice mans
but guess wad!
i ferged to copy ma links and taggie
now have to hunt fer it
BLUEK!
ani wai woke up supper early todae
had to follow ma aunt to GAY-lang
to go and buy food fer hari raya
it was super hot!
had to stand outside waiting fer her
fer at least an hour
and den i saw an angel!
ahaz
he was supper cute
i was ad one end
he was ad da other
he was selling bajuu
blahss
i walked pass him
and all hopes vanished
he was a MAT
well i didnt see his pants larhs
but his voice sound cartoon!
akhaz feerged it
i gt ma baby oleadi((:
ok i am going horny wid dis guy liaow
name syiddiq
akhaz like dicckay name((:
funny arhs
can die man toking to him
like the posible ways on why i can get pregnant
wen ma partner wears condom((:
akhaz ferged itt
but i can tell u ma fave
cuae his stuff is too bigg
till it broke!
blea
blea
ani wai i went to mosque
wei~!
becoming an angel sia
akhaz
den had 'zikir'
felt refreshed
while singing praisees
had an eye fer this guy
drop-dead-gorgeous((:
but nvr mind
i oleadi got one to keep ma mind occupied
so ferged about him larhhs
had this line wic is ma fav so caled song
u guys if not malay sorie
cant read or actually understand it
"tuhanku aku tidak layak untuk syurgamu tetapi aku tidak pulak sanggup ke neraka mu. ampunilah dosa ku. sesunggunya kau lah pengampun dosa-dosa besar"
the translation in malay((:
i remember yay!!
okok
wanna slack((:
backss
i halped ma daarling sweetpie wid her blog
now its nice
all thanks to me((:
ani wai sweetpie((: is ma gerl ziemah!!
yeapss
if u want u can go to her blog ad feewitlub.blogspot.com
but it aint dat ready YET
yeapss orite gerl!
lub u guyss
and gerl call me orite((:
; ] .
aiyorrhs amso bored canns?? i brought ma kuzzie to cutt her hair while waiting spent an hour on the fone wid sarah and as usual we crap all the way((:then she kena cutt of cause need sleep and yeahs again i was a loner there reading the magazine fer the millionth time oritee!!was way borred:/ so then she got off and yeahss afta tat went online saw sarah online. she just woke up! she look horrible. then guess wad! we went fighting wid this skewl gurl. she deserved it canns?? cant stand her lorrhs. if u reading this. ged losst can? u are just another piece of shit tat is ruining ma life. aiyorrhs todae cant tok to ma lil late nite people)): sarah, poot! cause in another 5 mins kena offline. aiyyorrhss dun know why oso. ferget it. i oso needa slp larhss.then ad nittee i talkied to my lil piglet but then kena cutt off cause sumthing croped up :/ and then msged sarah but she nvr reply larhss intending to prank her or maybe call and just as usual crapp away((: k i goota end here but not ending it widout a lil message fer ma lil piglet
PUTRI:
heyhey((: how have u beens. and as usual i wanan see the smile back. no matter wad happen u always have me to talk to oritee. just wadever happens BE STRONG.msg me back canns?? i really needa tok to you0.0!!*-iloveYOUU
SARAH:
hey gerl! i am boreed lets crap away again tonite canns?? i am seriouly bored! u read da entry before this ok?? and i changed ma outfir fer dat day AGAIN! hurhur!
; ] .
she leaving next year): why cant she stayy?i know i am soo gonna cry sia. any wayss
this entry is for you alrite gerl!
the year have been tough fer both of us. and i have to admit i wasnt there fer u all the while till recently and i have seen how much u meant to me.u know me in and out. u know my deepest secret and u know exactly the best way to react to my ractions. u are my best fren and of course we vows tat we will be sisters till the end((: i love you and u leaving school for the states would be tough. who would i call when i am bored?? who would i go to fer a shoulder to cry on? who would i scream ad wen i am boored?? me daily routine would change dramatically.u wold be back in feb but to another skewll. even if we are in the same country things would be diff. u say its not like u are dead and i laughed wid you but i am crying inside. its even worse now tat we are toking and crapping wid each other everydae. fuck it. i cry everytime i tink about it can! aiyorhs fren! i just want u to know even long distance frenship can werk. and if nithing u want, u can just holla ad me((: i love you and i know i will miss yoou((:
; ] .
yesdae slept seiruolsy late cause was reading two books. yarhs. aniwai am going out wid sarah and ma kuzzie on 23((: ma kuzzie is crossing fingers about stephan's presence! she has this major crush on SARAH'S YOUNGER BROTHER wic is duh! stephan:/ its on her mom's bdae but she gonna tell her tat she iss out to buy her a bdae present.idont larh but we have to be home by 6 or atleast leave town ad dat time cause yeah i want her to be home fer dinner wid her mom((:
i still have not decided wad to wear haizz.i thought of wearing the skirt i bought yesdae and the top but then.. kuzzie wearing jeans and sarah wearing jeans and sum gerlie top but then i oni freak wearing skirt:/ i dun knoww but if i wear jeans i got no shoee to wear wid it.. as in my shoees are ad da otheeeer house. errr cancan larhss..i wear the outfit i told sarah.. the skirt and the topp((: aiyorrhs imagine if nibodi frm skewl sees me like dat :/:/ diess!
; ] .
todae was the beshh((: went town wid parents and kuzzie.serioulsy pack seyy.went there to get my rayee shoee.but geuss wadd tat was the last thing i bought~! akahzz. started off at wisma and saww a really cute slipper tat match my outfit fer todae( pink shirt low jeans). and bought it. it was like 40++. and then shopped there but cantt find nithing.i saw vanessa and fren. actually ma kuzie saw herr. i only saaw her frm farr yeahyeah wanted to get a pants frm samuel and kevin but dad disaproved so headed to giordano. bought jeans and belt.total was ard 70++ and then finish shopping there. was almost time to breakfast so headed to far east fer dinner. reseve a place and went to level one to shopp. there i saw a t shirt wic was really cuttee. and ad 9.90 onii!! it has sumthing likee 'the things you shouldnt say to your teacher'. and ad series bought a skirt((: it ws those kind of crumpled kinddd nice((:and so was the price! 50 buckss cann then yeah shopp again again. then headed to thangs and buy my rayee shoee. was 40 bucks and headed home cause all was deadd
so total spent :
shoe-40
jeans and belt-70
shirt-10
skirt-50
shoee-40
shit! i spend more than 200 canss!! walau. i dieee
cant spend nimore)):
; ] .
eh fren
hu was calling yur fren a poser
and by the way its POSER NOT POSTER
gawd do u even noe the diff?
haiz..
it wasnt yur fren larhs
it was u!
so yeah
wadever
my days on sat was great
we had funfair and yeah
ad da same time i finally released on my stress
i was all the way ad da stall(dunking machine)
wen an incident happened
and started hanging wid siti, ir, putri
then yana, sarah's fren phone got lost
it was as per normal the sec senior
aiyarhs
ferget them larh yana
i mean God know better
ani wai
the weather was fine
and me iryani and siti tought it waould be so cooling to dunk ourself
until it started raining!
man was it cold
i was shivering
then we wanted to plai in the big tank
and so we did
it was HOT like a jacuzzi
we played in there
and was jined by hana and adela later
it was fun
then later dad took me from skewl
i was like urinating in da bus sia..
i had no DRY clothes to wear to go town fer dinner
and mum had to buy fer me the pants wid a tight fiting top
haiz...
i dun wanna blog no more
haiz going to town ad 12
so ad nite thn me blog larhs
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