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sigh... ad can i say... da hols are bad fer me.. well u neo hu u are.. so no need to intro or nithing...yeah.. well... i dun wanna it to end either.. but it is juz hard... it is hard to feget wad u actully did to me...afta all da concern and stuff.. u juz blow up.. i was kinda upset abt ur actions.. and all u tin is tat i dun care.. i dun bother how u feel?? now.. waid a min.. u have known me long enough to noe dat i am not tat kinda person.. afta wad u wrte on ur blog.. well... letme tell ya smthing... i got all mix feelings... i juz wanan die... wanna leave u alone... cuz i know dat is wld make life better and easier fer ya... alot easier!! and u tink all diz while i am angry ad u... having hatred feelings... yes i do.. but been tearing non-stop... all does sleepless nite i have juz tinking wad to do...tinking if i continue how far can it go?? wad if i end... where will i be?? i dun noe but i wanna end diz relationship badly.. cause i cant see maself hurt nimore.. i dun want to.. not again.. i have seen it too many times... well to tell ya da truth... i too have been doing it... didnt wanna to.. but could not help ad all...it hurt too much... ni waiz.. yeah u have to get me strait... i wanna diz to end.. but ad da same time.. i dun want it too!!it diff to letcha go...afta wad we have been thru..ahh!!! wad am i toking abt?? ni waiz... suga... thanks if onli we cld wid out getting xpel... and lil fwen.. hey cnt i blog hop?? i oleadi have one larh... pweash... and mrs ang... thanks fer da advice... will make use of it one day...nas dun mind i take this frm ya...
letting go of someone dear to u is hard, but holding on to someone who dont even feel the same is much harder.. giving up doesnt mean ure weak, it means dat ure strong enuf to let it go
tats ma last wrd...
peace outy~
i will ; put my days with you here /