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i am sitting here wid ma seriously baggy t's
and letme add it looks like a three quater t'shirt
wid ma F*ck band and chokers.
ma kuzzie say i look havoc sia
this would be a thrid time me blogging rite??
hahaha
todae had a nice dinner but sumhow i vomited AGAIN
seriously
i pity ma granny man
she cooked one of her best dishes
but i had to vomit evelithang out
haiz..
sumthing wrong wid ma tummy and i know it
cause its not ma first time having this 'sickness'
i would try ma best to go to schl tml
cause i seriously tired restless and sick
but tat would be noticeable
if u minus of ma dancing and shouting ad hme
i called ma kuzzie like 4 times
cause as usual i was bored and i had to bug someone
i practically wen horny wid Htun linn, ma god bro
talked crap wid shah
hes crappie
tat is why i said nice
can i add tat hes sweet??
tat would be too gay rite??
so i wouldnt
it was the hardest but i had to do it
i dont want her to be hurt
and i did
it made a tear drop
but i dun give a damn
now i am told to lay off
so fine i lay off
argh
i am soo sick of ma past
i cant stand it
wouldnt it be better if i would just like die
so no one would be able to get hurt??
so tat it would be easy fer everyone??
but i cant
i tried
but i cant
i still have the words ringing in ma head
kak putri's word
carolyn's word
cassie's word
i cant leave them
cause they led me out of the woods
cause
it would be said stingy
it would be dissapointing
i dont know how to say it
i am sick of the pretend smile infrnt of evelione
the holding back of tears
the voice inside of me stopping me to scream
wen it is the best time to
maybe i wrote the poem 'sucidal' fer a reason
so tat in a way pple noe how i feel living in the world
i end here
i end ma entry here
hopefully ma life soon
i will ; put my days with you here /